OSCAR

posted in Obstetric and Gynaecology department for 2 months.and this is the end of 2 weeks already.time sure flies fast.and to be honest,this is the department i've been waiting for all this time.it's the busiest but the most exciting department,despite the fact that the doctors are no where to be found whenever needed.they are just so busy!and that added some more spices to this posting.

i never have an ambition before.i got into medic because my mom wanted me to and i don't know any other courses,except for medic,engineering,art and literature.i once insisted on literature,but my mother was so persistent,i can't even say no to her.

but years later,i found myself immersed in a whole new and exciting world.where people lives were saved.

yes,i might complained about this and that,but still,i love to be a doctor. a great and reliable doctor. inshaAllah.


p/s: will finished my MBBS in October 2013.that's one and a half year from now. i'm hoping for the best! :)

Easy

never once i felt something like this.the first,and the last,i hope.

and to everyone involved in these past 2 and a half years,thank you.and i'm sorry.

jodoh itu urusan Tuhan.kalau sudah usaha,dan sudah doa,tapi masih tak mampu diteruskan,maka apalah daya aku.

yang lebih baik itu tetap ada.

plastic

semalam aku bukak satu link di facebook.gambar artis korea,yang di upload oleh orang Melayu,Islam di Malaysia.dalam bahagian komen,penuh dengan ayat caci maki artis tu;

"eleh,plastic je semua ni.u olls jangan la terpedaya"

"boleh la cantik macam ni kalau dah cucuk sana,cucuk sini."

"tu hidung dia tu palsu la tu.tajam gile kot.tak mungkin ah cantik macam ni.konfem buat plastic surgery!"

"eeeee plastic!ptuih!"

pelik.sumpah aku pelik.

persoalan aku satu; apa perlu nya kau kutuk artis tu?

aku di sini bukan mempertahankan artis tu.cuma aku pelik.

biarlah artis tu nak buat pembedahan plastic satu badan sekali pun,yang kau nak tambah dosa kutuk orang tu kenapa?

atau kau jealous kau tak boleh jadi cantik macam tu?

*diam*

kau agak agak; kalau Tuhan tak kata ubah mana-mana tubuh badan,(kecuali atas sebab sebab kesihatan),tu berdosa...kau nak ubah tak muka kau jadi cantik?

mesti nak. jangan tipu.

lepas tu aku scroll lagi kat bawah.ada satu orang cina Singapore ni,pergi tanya soalan;

"why meh orang Islam tak boleh buat plastic surgery?"

tak berjawab soalan tu.ada la satu dua tulis; "dosa.berdosa"

*diam*

kalau betul kau tahu itu dosa,kenapa tak dijelaskan kenapa berdosanya ubah kecantikan fizikal macam tu?

paling tidak cakap lah;

"berdosa.Tuhan tak bagi ubah apa-apa sebab kami dah cukup cantik.dan kami cukup gembira dengan apa yang Tuhan kami bagi"

*diam*

kadang kadang aku rasa orang Malaysia paling kelakar :/

i knew it.

Qaseh dah pandai berjalan.Aqeef dah pandai memanjat sana sini.can't wait for holidays.will pinched those chubby cheeks everyday!

and i have exams on next monday,tuesday,friday,saturday.

and also on the next next monday,tuesday,wednesday and thursday.

the never ending exams in the life of a medic student.

p/s: one of my seniors wrote his as her fb status; ' i lost my first patient today.i'm sorry.really really sorry'

that,is the dark side of being a doctor.bukan senang nak selamatkan orang lain =.="

kosong

i want to write everything,but i just cant.it was either difficult to tell or God just wants me to keep this all to myself.

kaya

bagi kau,apa maksud susah?

adakah ini;

tidak tidur malam belajar semata lulus exam?

adakah ini;

mengemis di tepi jalan menghulur tangan untuk sesuap nasi?

adakah ini;

berpanas terik di sawah demi anak-anak?

adakah ini;

melihat dia gembira dengan gadis lain?

adakah ini;

darah berlumuran di badan setelah negara di bedil dengan bom dari angkasa?

bagi aku; entah.setiap orang Tuhan cipta beza-beza.untuk ditafsir maksud susah,harus di beri kebebasan kepada diri sendiri.

p/s: a friend of mine claimed that she is poor and i'm rich.just because she saw me using certain gadjets that she can't buy.i bet she don't know the meaning of poor itself.

p/p/s: aku tak kaya.mak ayah aku tak kaya.tidak pernah kaya.kalau miskin itu kau tafsir guna kemampuan membeli barang-barang mahal,maka kau salah.

attempt

i made a thinly veiled attempt to fit in the society around me.

it was a total failure.i don't give a damn anymore.