safe and sound

Bismillaah..

lintas langsung dari KLIA,Azian Hana dah selamat sampai Malaysia.

alhamdulillah.

balik balik balik

Bismillaah..

I'M GOING HOME TONIGHT.

semua caps lock.can you feel my excitement?hahaha


well,i will be busy like a bee.apa2 pun,updates selepas habis cuti.

jumpa lagi.jaga diri.

bye2.

May Allah blesses us :)

naaayy,ain't that sweet?

Bismillaah..

"if water is beautiful,you'd be ocean"

mulut manis macam gula.rasa nak pangggg pun ada.

kewajipan

Bismillaah..

i ate butter prawn with plain rice.about 5 minutes ago.

but i also ate ayam masak lemak,sayur kubis goreng and sambal at 6.30 pm tadi.

the time now is 10.57pm.

see the time gap.it's not even 6 hours,tapi aku dah makan 2 kali..tu belum masuk lunch dengan breakfast.

=.="

i'm not blaming myself.semua exam punya pasal.stressing me out to the max.kan dah makan banyak.seriously.i was sitting calmly on my bed(tak tidur,bukan),reading those pathology thingy..and then,suddenly,i found myself cooking those butter prawn.in the middle of the night.huh.

living here,i cant stop myself from cooking.dah takde benda lain nak buat.hadap buku aje sure put some more pressure.itu sungguh tidak baik.aiseh.like makan tengah malam tu baik sangat la.cis.

but i realize one thing.

my cooking skills are getting better.woot woot!masuk bakul angkat sendiri.ceh.

mesti la happy,as back there in Malaysia,everyone in my house know how to cook properly.my mom kind of teach us how to cook.actually,she forced us to.haha.

but in my house,i'm the biggest loser,when it comes to cook.

i dont know why,but everytime i cooked for my family,there must be something wrong somewhere.masin la.gulai cair la.masak lemak santan tak masak la.even my youngest brother lagi pandai masak than me.

and believe it or not,each one of us,the girls in the family,memang akan masak for the whole famili.be it lunch or dinner.even time raya and kenduri sekalipun.semua kena handle sendiri.

my first sister started to cook for family dinner,since she was 12.when i say cook,it means,EVERYDAY.each meal.

then when she went to further her studies elsewhere,my second sister took over her duty.and she,the si degil number 2 start masak for family since she was 11.now you can ask whatever you wanna eat.she'll cook for you.she even prepared rendang and all stuffs for jamuan raya by herself.and yang paling tak tahan,dia masak untuk majlis tunang dia sendiri haritu.hahahaa.

my mom just tolong potong daging and of course,mengarah itu ini.

and now my sister,the fourth girl in family is taking over the other two's job.she cooks for my family now.she is now in form five.younger than me and even her dishes taste better than mine =.="

so,what's up with me?tak masak ke?pemalas ke?kenapa tak pandai??

because i studied in boarding school.asal balik rumah je,mesti mintak diorang masak itu ini.lama2 memang tak tahu sangat memasak.

but,after habis foundation,my mom started nagging on me on this thing.and because i had too much time to kill,sebab cuti berbulan bulan,maka belajar la masak.

now at least,i can say that i know how to cook.let alone the taste.asal nampak rupa and boleh makan,okay la kan?

i once asked my mom,bout the reasons behind all the conspirations to force us to cook.

and she said,it's for our future.no,no.not because nanti nak kahwin kena masak untuk suami,but when duduk jauh from her,she wants to make sure that we are not starving to death.senang cerita,tak mati kebuluran kalau mak takde.

but she added up some new sentences,which made me laughed.

"lagipun senang hidup mak nanti.dah ada 4,5 anak perempuan.kalau tak boleh tolong mak buat apa?penat mak teran serlah hangpa keluaq,takkan sikit ni pun tak boleh tolong.kan?"

ha'ah.yelah mak...

yes,i do

Bismillaah..


this is my take 5 for tonight.eceh.


seriously Microbiology,you really want to torture me or what?this much?this hard?

dush.lempang diri sendiri sebab stress.diam.tutup cerita exam.

...


lagi 3 hari nak balik.BALIK.MALAYSIA aku cakap kauuuuuuu..

but takde la meroyan sampai masuk mimpi.sebab yang masuk dalam mimpi ialah,of course,EXAM.tsk.tsk.

okay.sabar.sabar.

...

siang tadi ada kenangan mengimbau,dan sepanjang merentas lorong kenangan[apakah???????],telah tersedar beberapa perkara.

i've changed.a lil bit here and there.not 100% but yes.i do change.people may not noticed,since yang rapat2 semua duduk jauh.kalau message or contact thru facebook,well,i might sound like Azian Nur Suhana yang gila2 macam dulu.but here comes the truth.i'm not that Azian Nur Suhana.you'll get surprised once you meet me.face to face.gila-gila.oh.yang tu still ada,but internally,i do change.and externally,of course.dah,jangan buat2 tak faham.you know what i mean =.="

and looking back this past few years,i can say that 70% of me is a new me.because when you keep growing up,when you keep living,you'll notice that certain things in our life,that we used to like,are not suitable anymore for us.be it a person or a thing.be it anything.

i'm moving on.seriously.i forget who i want to forget,i forgive who i should and could forgive.

well,i can't simply forgive everyone.i know,forgiving someone is our task as Allah's slave,because it's not our HAK to sesuka hati tak maafkan orang.but,i am a human.a normal human.bukan supergirl[eh eh lagu SuJu ni].i'm working on it.still.

and believe me people,once you meet me in the future,or for those yang dah janji siap2 nak jumpa in another 3 days tuu,mesti akan terkejut.

oh this is not a mencari publisiti ke apa,but i speak the truth.

it's up to you to believe it or not.

and for my feelings,heh,human are created with emotions.but human have brain and heart to distinguish between good and bad.yang batil dengan yang hak.yang salah dengan yang betul.i do feel that my feeling towards that someone,is really immature,stupid and erkk..kind of tak masuk akal?

i waited for 7 years,yet at the end of the day,i realize that someone isn't made for me.at least i know for now.but if Allah nak kun fayakun kan dua manusia ini,siapa boleh halang?ah,tidak la sampai berdu'aa siang malam untuk si polan ini.belum masuk tahap tu lagi.awal lagi.

cuma sekarang,aku bebas dari benda2 menyesak jiwa ni[exception for Lee Hong Ki and Brother rambut serabai guitar merah CN Blue :P]

i did brag about certain things,okay..many things.and i complained a lot.but my way of thinking is different.way too different.kalau dulu,each one of things yang jadi,first thing popped up in my head would be;

"kenapa?apesal pulak macam ni?"

and i said it out loud.

but now,when something happened,i will sit and accept it.even kadang2 separuh rela,but i accept it.and that,a major thing yang berubah.dulu susah sangat nak accept apa2 yang jadi.mesti nak tentang dulu.mesti nak jugak telagah.nak jugak bangkang.but now,dah kurang macam tu.

why?

because dulu, i opened only my eyes,not my heart.i search things based on logic,not based on ayat Allah.i tell you,everytime something came up,do not say anything.cepat2 rujuk ayat Allah.you'll find the answer.tak pernah tak jumpa.

and i realize that i have many good friends,yang sama2 jatuh bangun time sekolah.and now,each one of us dah berubah.ke arah baik atau tidak,itu saya kurang pasti,tapi yang baik2 lah hendaknya.inshaAllah.and we have our own path.ambik medic la,engineering la,maths la,cikgu la,chemistry la,pharmacy la..and many more.i am glad to know all of them.each of them is different,in many ways.syukur untuk itu.

..


okayyyy.done meluah.sekarang mari sambung baca Microb.please microb,be easy on me tomorrow.i promise you,after exam ni habis,i will never ever abandoned you.i will never ever put you out from my jadual belajar.hihi.

baiklah.sebelum aku melalut lebih panjang,baik aku berhenti.sekian.


notapakkaki: tolong du'aa untuk saya. Ya Allah, permudah kan lah segala urusan dunia dan akhirat Azian Nur Suhana. dan Allah permudahkan urusan kita semua.inshaAllah.Ameen.

May Allah blesses us.

musim exam,kalau dapat makan cakoi mesti best.

Bismillaah...



first day exam.FORENSIC MEDICINE telah ditumpaskan.tumpas ke?just wait and see the marks la baru boleh kata tumpas ke hape.

i did my best tadi.tatau la lecturer rasa best ke tak baca jawapan aku =.="

lupakan forensic.yang berlalu usah dikenang,sayang.muahaha.apakah tetiba jiwang ini?baik.baik.kita ke hal lain.


got another 3 papers.all of them are the killer subjects.jangan masuk fasa stress lagi sekali Azian Hana.aku lempang kau karang.


tapi dalam banyak2 paper,aku rasa Microbiology akan jadi subject yang paling digeruni..sebab..sebab..ah biarkan.kita cuba yang terbaik.okay?

...

oh,past few days ago,ada satu puisi yang aku kerah keluar dari otak.

puisi untuk kakak.

dan aku dah berkira-kira nak baca time si degil number 2 kahwin,tapi kejap lagi kena buat bahan dengan pak2 sedara dengan sepupu papat tak ke nahas namanya??

jadi aku rasa,aku akan selit puisi dekat bilik pengantin dia aje lah.biar surpriseeeeeeeeeeeee!haha.ngok.

yelah,nak bagi hadiah lain,adik mu ini telah pokai.nak membeli novel juga sudah kurang duit.[yang dekat sheffield kalau baca,sila send number credit card anda sekarang.msg kat fb pun okay :P].


okay.sekarang urat kepala dah pandai menonjolkan diri di dahi jendol.orang tak panggil pun di sibuk nak keluar.fine.nak tidur lah macam ni.

terencat

Bismillaah..


revising through my notes,i realize that i am the one yang suka berangan time belajar.

why?

because most of my notes,at every page of them,mesti akan ada some lines of poem.or quotes,or apa2 aje la ayat merapu yang terlintas dalam kepala.that wasn't my actual intention to do so,but it just happened.it just...there.haha.

maybe because i think too much.or maybe because i like to do many things at a same time.very tak effective you know.sila jangan ikut perangai aku.

=.="


exam is less in 24 hours.yeay!eh why so happy?it's EXAM!gila ke kau Azian Hana?

well,i just want it to be done.just do it.wah.Nike!

=.="

please be here.fast.

Sarah Khairunisah,please..pretty please..

takmau.

Bismillaah...



i don't know what to say.tension tahap apa aje.

baca yang ini,lupa yang itu.

mak,can i just go back home now?

holiday is just 6 days away,but i don't even have a heart to think bout it.gone away my excitement about my sister's wedding.gone away all the senarai mengidam.right now,in my head is;

"can i make it?boleh ke jawab dengan baik?"

i know.kena tawakkal.but i just can't help but to think bout the exams.this time,it freaks me out.congratulations to you,Mr. Exam. you just won the psychology battle just now.nervous breakdown some more.

problem yang terperap dari dulu jangan cakap la.

takpe.takpe.sabar.sikit aje lagi.

ah,since i'm too busy with my exams and all,this time balik,takde buah tangan.takde.takde.malas nak bergegas shopping saat akhir.luggage pun entah ke mana,lagi nak sibuk fikir pasal buah tangan.ceh.

oh,oh.this time,ingat nak bawak bagpack Liverpool dengan Nikon,iPod and handphone and passport aje balik.tamau bawak baju.perfume sendirik pun tamau.nak tibai aje perfume orang kat rumah.

tapi nanti,nak balik sini mesti kena bebel dengan mak sebab kena beli luggage baru.yela.takkan nak humban botol kicap Kipas Udang dengan cencaluk dengan novel2 dengan baju2 baru semua sekali ke dalam bagpack sekangkang kera tu?oh.taksesuai sungguh peribahasa tu.lantak situ.orang nak ambik literature tak boleh.suruh ambik medic lagi.

diam ah ayam.


notatapakkaki; maaf.penulis sedang jiwa bergelora.tak.tak.bukan bergelora nafsu.diam semua.

rahsia ke?

Bismillaah..

"tidakkah mereka mengetahui bahawa Allah mengetahui rahsia dan bisikan mereka,dan bahawa Allah mengetahui segala yang ghaib?"

[At-Taubah 9;78]

Allah tahu apa dalam hati aku dan kamu.simpan rahsia itu.tak perlu hebah.biar kita dengan Allah saja yang tahu.

langkah seterusnya;

berusaha dan du'aa.lebihnya kita gantungkan ke Allah.

:)

comel sampai nak pijakkkkkk

Bismillaah..

this is my take-5 of the day.haha.


btw,i had severe headache this evening.ya Allah.rasa nak tercabut urat kepala.bukan migraine.it's just something that i have regularly,since past few years.and i slept after maghrib.i know.tak baik,but it was too painful okayyy.

telan panadol sebijik,then tidur.pukul 8 baru bangun.and then..


pharmaco-ing la.apa lagi.

=.="


i dont know if i want to skip 4-hours-classes tomorrow.i mean,i have exams in less than 3 days,yet still ada classes.medic kills.ceh.

test dermatology is over.practical la.theory hari Sabtu ni.SABTU aku cakap kauuuuu.bangun awal la aku hari Sabtu ni.sheessh!


oh,hari ni berlaku syndrome rindu manusia.aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.siapa tak payah cakap la kan.tiba-tiba rasa nak hentak kepala sendiri ke bucu katil.

oh,oh..petang tadi sebelum headache menyerang,ada satu budak datang ke rumah.jeng jeng jeng..


presenting; Benjamin s/o Manuel and Ahmad Teddy Ahmad Aqram[the later one memang duduk rumah ni pun]

hai,i'm Benji.si gebu.Mat Gebu.awwww.serious aku nak pijak budak ni.comel tahap ape aje.and,and..berat dia is 4.5 kg.berat aku cakap kauuu.harga?25ooo rupees.if in malaysian ringgit,u have to divide by 14.you do the maths.

hey,sayalah samseng kampung dusun.nama ayah saya Aqram.mak saya nama Ogie.saya tak suka duduk rumah mak.rumah ayah banyak kawan.saya selalu malas bila duduk rumah mak,sebab housemates mak semua gila.dah.bye.=.=""

i'm not a big fan of cats.really.because since kecik lagi,tak pernah bela kucing more than a month.because most of my family members have asthma.bulu-bulu kucing ni memang lah perangsang terbaik untuk asthma attack kann.

but these 2 budak,seriously,an exception.

hahaha.dulu bukan main tamau pegang,now semua dalam rumah dah sayanggg.balik dari class aje,mesti like;

"eh,mana Teddy?"

or;

"Teddy cayanggg" dengan dengung 5 harakat =.="



and everytime Teddy takde kat rumah,semua macam rindu gitu.well,absence makes heart grows fonder.aceeccee.

dah.done updating.i better go and read adrenergic drugs effects bla bla bla..


p/s:

somebody called me and i picked up the phone.then manusia tu cakap is: "laaa.hidup lagi.ingatkan dah mati.takpun dah pindah pergi Guatemala."

then that manusia hung up on me.

serious rasa macam nak pergi bom tempat dia sekarang.kuang asam jawa.

the basket is always full

Bismillaah...


dah malam.time flies fast,eyh?memang ah.ingat nak ke dia tunggu kau yang terhegeh hegeh kalah kura-kura.cis.

getting tense here.i mean,myself.the exam is less in 5 days,yet i have less than 50% preparation.tatau lah kenapa,but cepat sangat lupa lately.baca lupa.baca lupa.adukan ke mak;

"boleh!mesti boleh!jangan risau."

mak and her confidence =.="


ouh,esok SPM akan diumumkan.i have sisters yang ambik spm last year,literally la.yela.my juniors yang masuk time aku form 4.dulu kecik2 jalan tunduk,sekarang dah nak ambik result dah pun.eh eh.terasa tua =.="

All the best untuk semua adik2.dah usaha,redhakan lah hasilnya.takpe.Allah tak pandang hasil,Allah pandang usaha.yang penting,kita tahu kita di tahap mana sebenarnya.

teringat time ambik result spm dulu.cuak jangan cakap.selawat komahen banyak lagi.lepas nampak keputusan yang tertera,wah!rasa manis bak gula.tak sia2 usaha aku jadi nerd dekat library sambil godek walkman gedabak and mp3 time belajar kat library sambil buat nota,sambil usha orang handsome[ada ke?],sambil berangan sambil eh eh banyak nya sambil.diam ayam.


tadi jugak mak bagitahu,yang abah tersalah sebut nama si degil nombor dua waktu pergi pejabat agama.abah gelabah.haha.nasib tak baik la terlepas saat gelabah abah.rugi.rugi.takpa.nanti time Azian Hana kahwin abah mesti gelabah jugak.eh gatai nooo ayam.diam.

esok HKSBP Zon Utara.wahhh!sekali lagi kenangan mengimbas.okay berhenti mengimbas kenangan Azian Hana.grow up la.move forward.just forward.

=.="

esok ada test practical dermatology.cuak.kenapa?sebab doctor yang handle suara macam halilintar.

esok ada seminar and MCQ pharmaco.cuak.kenapa?sebab sekali lagi,lecturer yang ini ada suara bak halilintar juga.

bayangkan;

kau tengah tenang habis ni.dah baca and hafal segala drugs,ape semua..yakin.duduk.lecturer yang nak menyoal masuk.dia tanya soalan.semua diam.and tiba-tiba;

"you!!"

bila kau angkat kepala,tiba2 jari dia dah tuding ke muka kau.lepas tu satu kelas pusing nak tau siapa insan bertuah yang disoal.

and suddenly,you just forgot what you read..all of them.poof!disappeared!

and kau bangun buat muka yakin tak yakin..lepas tu semua boleh agak la apa yang jadi kannn..

sebab tu aku cuak.

=.="

i'm done with my rants for today.sekarang mari masuk fasa jiwa terancam.jeng jeng jeng..


ENOUGH.

one word.6 letters.simple,yet the way you said it,may not give true interpretation.

someone said;

enough is never enough.

true.you can say it thousands time,but the truth is,kalau setakat cakap enough di mulut,tapi di hati tidak,tak ada guna.ambik contoh mudah;

ada orang offer makanan.kau ambik.kali kedua,kau ambik lagi.siap puji sedap.and yes,memang kau rasa benda tu sedap,and kau nak lagi.bila offer kali ke tiga datang,kau cakap;

"i had enough" sambil senyum.

tapi dalam hati kau melonjak lonjak nak dia offer lagi sekali.

okay.dalam hal macam ni,kau yang rugi.ulang suara; KAU YANG RUGI.chances come with a high price.and possibility untuk kau dapat chances tu semua,adakala nya tinggi,but mostly rendah la kan.why wasting on something yang kita tahu kita takkan selalu dapat?lepas dah tolak,baru nak menyesal.

so,just say something,only if you really mean it.kalau tak,menipu diri sendiri namanya.jujur dengan diri sendiri.kalau tak boleh,belajar untuk jadi jujur.

truth hurts,reality bites.but this is life.what do you expect?so just bear with it,and be yourself.be your best self.

booster dose

Bismillaah..



i have dermatology tests.both practical and theory.and also pharmacology's seminar and MCQ,which i haven't study yet.sungguh penat.sungguh.

i should be busy like a bee right now.but this can be considered as my take-5 la kan?because since 2 jam tadi duduk diam2 baca derm from 3rd page up to 67th page.berpinar-pinar dah mata.

btw,i have lots of things in my mind[bila masanya kepala kau kosong,Azian Hana?]

tengoklah nanti,weekend ni mungkin akan diceritakan.but i'm pretty sure that my post on weekend may contains my bebelan and rants and complaints about my exam.

tolong du'aa untuk urusan aku dipermudahkan.ini baru first internal exam.belum final.baru ujian dunia ni.alahai~

dan,dan.lepas sembahyang tadi baru perasan kenapa sejak belajar di India ni,selalu sangat cepat hilang focus.and dah jumpa reason kenapa bila buat kerja,tak pernah 100% punya semangat.tak macam duduk sekolah dulu.turun adala turun,but it never reached below 50% level.

kenapa ya?


sebab time sekolah dulu,tiap2 hujung minggu mesti salam cium tangan peluk mak dengan abah.rasa macam semangat dua manusia paling aku cinta dengan sepenuh cinta tu,meresap masuk ke hati.dan level semangat tu terus up.macam dapat booster dose of semangat.

nanti balik Malaysia,nak salam peluk cium mak dengan abah banyak2 kali.buat bekal untuk bawak balik ke India :)

birthday wishes

Bismillaah...



a quick one;

MAZNI MAZLAN and BAITH SHAIDAN and SALLEHIN ZULKAFLAY;

sanah helwah.happy birthday.selamat hari jadi.
May Allah showers the mercies upon all of you.

and special thanks to Mazni Mazlan:

thank you for always being there for me.and on lah handphone.orang nak wish guna suara laaa.haha.



notatapakkaki: my last entry had nothing to do with my very own life,let alone other people's lives.it was just something that i write.or maybe aku kena rasuk sekejap semalam :P

the end

Bismillah..





after;

a very long and tiring run,
all those years we spent together,
too many trials,
too many moments,
the awkward silences between us,
the smiles i gave,
the tears i shed,
the phone calls we made,
the hearts we broke,
the love we shared...

all these too shall passed.

like some chapters of stories written by the same author.we are correlated to each other,but not meant to be in a same book.or maybe,we never ever meant to get published as a whole.




and as every book has its own ending,so do us.

i am putting an end to our stories.

i let you go,after taking everything into consideration.and believe me,Allah knows best.

trinity

Bismillaah..


Comm Med buat hal lagi tadi.but i'm too exhausted to rant bout it.let it be the way it should be.hadapkan aja nanti.

but i might want to go to Comm Med's lectures if and only if the lecturers look like this man in this vid.and the most important is..his voice.eh,eh.lebih pulak.diam ah ayam.

not too late

Bismillaah..


"any crazy thoughts towards somebody may drive you out from your own safety and comfort zone."

dia.

"i'm done playing safe.let's start with something different.something..dangerous."

aku.


fine.

we'll go from here.

asthalin

Bismillah..

"kau macam inhaler asthalin aku.penting,cuma guna sekali sekala."

flashback

Bismillaah..


mungkir janji.sebab dulu pernah cakap yang tamau letak gambar banyak2 dekat kotak hitam kecik ni.but since i have *cough* new *cough* dslr..so i guess,putting up some pictures wouldn't be considered as a crime,kan?hehe.

nah,ambik.ori.fresh from camera.takde adobe photoshop.takde edit2.malas.

black bag.please ignore the retardness at the back :P




my Liverpool bag.tersadai dekat ruang tamu lepas habis kelas.




JunJun[right] and Teddy[left].not twins,but siblings.see Teddy's eyes.ptosis like his mom's too.haha




a thing.got from someone,who was going somewhere.

dah.

notatapakkaki; Comm Med dah siap.nyah kau dari hidup aku lepas ni.wait.tak boleh.i have test after hols.ish =.='

Maths

Bismillaah...

premis 1; aku tak suka Community Medicine.
premis 2; kau ialah Community Medicine.

solution?

siapa belajar Mod Maths dulu,dia tahu apa jawapannya.sekarang bila tension,dah pandai guna Maths untuk menyalurkan ke-tension-an secara positive.wah!

dah,bye.

saya takut gelap.anda?

Bismillaah..


aku sebenarnya tengah take-5 dari mengadap buku.aha,take 5 la sangat.entah berapa banyak dah rest kau ni Azian Hana.takpe.come back to the story.

i always have this weird thing in me.apakah?

fear of darkness.scientifically,known as achluophobia.

i might sounds crazy,but the truth is,i sleep with the lights on.i have to.i need to.kalau tak,memang aku boleh ganti Pak Guard berjaga.

since kecik lagi,aku perasan yang aku memang tak boleh tidur kalau tak ada cahaya.now,what i mean is not cahaya suram ala2 hidup segan mati takmau ke apa.but i need a real effects of lightning.mesti terang benderang.kalau boleh bawak masuk lampu spotlight dekat stadium,serious aku nak buat jadi lampu tidur aku.

masuk boarding school,aku memang alergic bab2 lights off ni.tambah2 bila ada warden dengan pengawas yang duk menjerit jerit suruh tutp lampu dorm.i always have this one torch light.yang bila orang lain tutup lampu dorm,and suruh semua masuk tidur,aku akan nyalakan.i know,memang ada lampu koridor,but i can't sleep with that little amount of lights.so,i used my torch light,bukak,and terus selubung satu badan,from head to toe,tutp muka semua sekali,and masukkan sekali lampu tu dalam selimut.yelah,takkan nak biar bergelimpang menyala atas katil.karang ada yang kena lempang pulak kannnn.and lampu tu memang selalunya akan berada di sebelah muka.tepat lagi,di sebelah mata aku.then only i can dozed off.heee.

tu cerita zaman junior.masuk senior year[form 4 and form 5],dah berani bukak lampu dorm.boleh la bertahan sekejap aje guna lampu koridor.tu pun sebab ada bestfriend temankan.hehe.but lepas tu,memang tidur bukak lampu dorm la kannn.

then masuk foundation year.i got one roomate yang..erk..totally opposed my sleep habit la.dia kalau tidur,memang lampu tutup semua.gelap gelita.GELAP.segelap gelap alam.and if there's even a slight flash from my handphone pun,dia akan macam terjaga jaga.gerak gerak sikit.[read;zaman foundation zaman miskin.tidur dalam bilik sempit dengan 2 manusia lain.and the bed is double decker type.i slept kat bahagian bawah,dia kat bahagian atas.].so,my alternative,hahaha.Sony Ericsson yang ada lampu.luckily,i bought that phone.ada lampu yang memang boleh nyala berapa lama kau nak,as long as battery cukup la.so,lagi sekali,teknik waktu menengah rendah digunakan.

then datang India. dapat roomate yang tak banyak kerenah sangat.she can sleep with the lights on,but i'm the one yang rasa bersalah pulak.so one day,dia belikan lampu tidur.tak.sebenarnya tu lampu belajar.alah,yang ada lampu ala2 lampu utama tu.but pendek sikit laa.heh.

tapi masuk second year,pindah rumah,and dapat jadi roomate dengan Nadhirah yang amatlah bertimbang rasa,baik hati,memahami,sporting[Nadh,aku puji kau ni,haha].dia memang tak kesah kalau tak tutup lampu.i remind you.there's 2 lights source in my room.satu lampu pendaflour yang kalau tak blackout and dibukak,terangnya,masyaAllah!sangat menggembirakan hati beta.haha.and lagi satu lampu bulat.mentol.dekat sebelah pintu bilik air.mula mula memang aku bantai tidur guna 2 lampu ni.nyenyak habis la tidur aku.serious gembira bahagia.ngahaha.but then,tiba tiba macam kesian dekat Nadh,because even dia tak kisah,but she might wants her rights too,kan?so now i only left that one mentol to light up the room.

yang tak bestnya,India ni selalu blackout.so i have to bear this kind of problem lah kan.everyone in my house ada emergency lights.bukak bila blackout.but i have none.malas nak beli.tapi...bila blackout aje,aku lah orang pertama yang menjerit and berlari ke arah sumber lampu!mangsa biasanya Nadh and Kotie.haha.

i don/t know.i tried to sleep without the lights,but i just can't.this one thing is not something that i can easily confront.dah pernah cuba.and kalau blackout,and if i was sleeping at that time,automatically akan terjaga dari tidur.tunggu sampai ada lampu balik,baru boleh sambung tidur.


bila dicerita,ramai cakap aku gila.ada ke tidur bukak lampu terang benderang?tak mahal ke bil letrik.erk..erk..tu hal lain.haha.

ada jugak yang cakap;

"habis tu kahwin annti macam mana?"

yang ni no komen.

ada jugak;

"takut apanya..mati nanti gelap jugak dalam kubur"

erk..erk..ni pun no komen jugak.

=.='


sekian saja sesi meluah kelemahan diri Azian Hana.

p/s: anda pula bagaimana?

ungu

Bismillaah...

"apa bisa ku cinta kamu,seperti mana aku dicinta kamu,aku dijaga kamu"

Boneca;Tunjukkan Aku

Abah and Mak;

Azian Hana sedang rindukan seisi rumah kita.

new baby

Bismillaah..


i have a good news.[kali ni memang betul2 good.holeyau!]

i have a new baby.oh bukan baby betul yang macam Maddox anak angkat Kak Jolie ke ape,but..


a new Nikon D3000.lepas penat lelah berhempas pulas survey sana sini.at first,i want D5000,but at last beli yang D3000 sudeyyhh..the reason?just because.haha.



btw,siapa yang dah tgk We Got Married episode 1,Yong Hwa and Seo Hyun version?nak tau apa tajuk lagu[music sebenarnya] yang keluar time mula2 Seo Hyun nak letak blanket atas bahu Yong Hwa.siapa tau?siapa tau?

=.='


aaaa.lagi satu.exam Comm Medd ditunda ke tarikh lain.selepas hols.gembira and syukur.at least boleh focus dekat killer subjects dulu.

done updating.see.hidup aku biasa aja.tapi cukuplah seadanya.dah habih bagus dah ni.Alhamdulillah.

:)

speed boat

Bismillaah...


good news.

i have an assignment.right before the exam.

an article,about water treatment.15 pages.times new roman.1.5 spacing.submitted on next monday.

community medicine,dalam banyak banyak masa,kenapa mahu pilih masa ini juga??

ah,esok pencarian benda seketul bakkk itu akan bermula.sama sama du'aa supaya ada hasilnya petang esok.ah teruja.teruja.

:)



notatapakkaki; i want something that i shouldn't have.Ya Ghaffar,ya Fattah.kalau itu yang terbaik,kun fayakun kan lah.

40 kinds of sadness.okay.tipu.

Bismillaah...


you can say that i am being childish or whatever,but i feel sick right now.sick as in homesick.sakit rumah.penyakit lama datang dah.ingatkan lepas habis sekolah takde lah sakitrumah dah.

=.='

Malaysia has everything. from foods to the people.and i might be biased a bit[banyak sebenarnya].yelah.nama pun negara sendiri.tempat jatuh lagikan dikenang,ini pula..alahai...

exam is just around the corner.but my mind is not with me,here,in this so called Incredible India.part of my mind is getting tired of seeing same thing.even my body shows some protest today.asyik nak lenguh-lenguh aje.lutut jangan cakap la.selang seminit mesti nak buat contraction di lutut ala2 baby menendang perut wanita mengandung kembar =.='

aaaaaa.lets take a peek into my exam schedule.mari.mari.ah sungguh teruja.[Ya Allah.apesal Azian Hana terencat semacam ni.ahhaha].

11/3/10:
Community Medicine[+ Pharmacology's Seminar and MCQ+ Dermatology Practical Test]

15/3/10:
Forensic Medicine

17/3/10:
Microbiology

18/3/10:
Pathology

19/3/10
Pharmacology

20/3/10
MALAYSIA,here i come! :)

saje aje lah kan tak bagi gap between microb dengan patho tu. memang nak bagi aku bersengkang mata la dua hari tu.thank you.thank you.

itulah dianya.exam.test.ujian.

baru ujian dunia macam ni,aku dah menggelupur.belum lagi ujian dunia yang Allah bagi.entah2 lagi besar,siapa tahu?kan?

jadi mesti redha dan terima serta bersedia dengan hati yang lapang dan gembira.every cloud has its own silver lining.hikmahnya ada.tunggu masa aja nak menjelma.

jadi mari berusaha sampai nak termuntah.

"usaha+du'aa+tawakkal+bergantung betul2 kepada Allah+percaya diri=Kejayaan"

berjaya hendaknya,inshaAllah.Ameen.

lil thought

Bismillaah..


they say i'm missing lotsa things,but i'm proud to say that i'm glad that i missed all them.

things just happened,ey?

either it's good or bad,you decide.

and for me,it always good.no matter what.