kilang ulat

so,we went to the silk factory.kilang ulat,sebenarnya.

sebab kami terlalu bosan duduk di rural area tu.maka,di satu tengahari yang panas berbahang,16 orang gadis melangkah ke kilang ulat,terletak kira-kira 200 meter dari hospital tu.

mula-mula semua macam cuak dengan ulat2 yg meliuk lentuk tu,tapi akhirnya ada lah beberapa wakil tunjuk berani main pegang-pegang tabur tabur ulat tu.

1 kg of these = rs 500 = almost rm50

this uncle is a Muslim.and if you are wondering what was he doing,well,he scattered the ulat into that round container.he said he was letting the ulat to rest,get some sunlight and produce the cotton-like substance.

some of my friends were brave enough to help this uncle.and i did try to touch the caterpillar,and it feels like a....marshmallow.soft,and spongy.but ALIVE. urgh.

so much ulat(s). *screams*

just when i thought that the nightmare was over,my friends insisted on entering the house/kilang/whatever place it was called as, just to see another thousands of caterpillars.luckily i have Farina,who stayed with my through thick and thin *eceh* .both of us are afraid/geli with ulat.

tadah! welcome to the house of horror! there were like 6/7 stacks of these,in one cabinet.and they have like..10 of cabinets? i'm not sure.i was busing checking my toes,ready to attack if any of the caterpillars manage to escape and come to me.

it was a great experience,despite the fact that i went back with a zero knowledge about silk making or whatever,because i was too busy jumping and running around,escaping from these little creatures.and also avoiding the naughty boys and girls in that village who tried to hand me some of these caterpillars.ergh.

i'll post another pictures of these later.

burnt

to believe everything will be alright,without making any efforts,is called as delusion.

there's no such thing as alright.nothing will be perfect.no one will ever be a perfect person. but there's always rooms for improvements along the way to perfection.

and to believe that you can achieve all this,without any dependance to your god,is ridiculous.

love.hate.death.fate.

they are not up to us to decide,but God.

sayur.

february is going to end soon.and i just can;t wait to finish this rural psychiatry posting.what i don't like about it is,the journey to go to the rural hospital. took me one and half hour to reach there.and India,being the most 'incredible' country,has the most bumpy roads ever.

aku rasa macam sayur tiap kali turun bas lepas sampai kat hospital tu.

and kalau dah jadi sayur,macam mana la nak stay focused and letak stethoscope kat badan orang.rentak jantung orang pun aku dah dengar macam kuah masak lemak mendidih dalam kuali.

tapi harap harapnya,bermula dari hari esok yang bakal cerah dan ceria *ayat minta penampar* akan ku gagahkan diri untuk tak menjadi sayur.lagipun cobaan ini hanyalah sebulan.tak mengapa.demi rakyat-rakyat india yang miskin dan dalam kesusahan,aku sabarkan hati.manalah tahu nanti dah start HO kena posted kat bahagian yang pedalaman sikit.bukan kampung,pedalaman.mark my word. kang tuduh aku berlagak kaya pulak kannnn.

eh btw,nina and marbeck,this is for you two.

thank you for being there.thank you for listening to me weeping and crying all the way from bangalore.yes i was being a crybaby that day.but i failed the exam.i have the rights to cry,kan?thank god for giving these 2 precious people to me.

and nina,walaupun kau terharu dengan ayat aku,aku still nak sepak kaki kau time jumpa bulan 4 nanti. i know u'll be reading this.ahahah.

stress

my ceiling fan has exploded and caused a big,terrible mess in the house.and i failed the exam on the same day.

pretty much in a depressed state right now.

jealous people are irrelevant.

being accused of wasting government's money for no obvious reason.what is wrong with you?some people just can't stand the fact that i'm better than them.not trying to act good.and not trying to praise myself over here,but seriously?asking me those kind of questions are rude.

do you even know what the heck am i facing over here?all those sleepless nights just to get good grades and survive in this field? and it's medic. one of the toughest courses in the world. not a mere simple field like what you've been into. come on. you just saw me posting about the kpop stuffs,my outing/vacations pictures on facebook, and then poof! you judged me like you were some kind of gods or something? duh. go and look into a mirror.

and i was tired of being asked if i studied hard enough for the exams. come on. which one you think is clever? getting a good grade after being 24/7 in front of your books and notes, or getting a good grade after watching tv series/movies? the later seems better,isn't it? not that i think that watching movies is good, the point is, IT DEPENDS!

and in this field,good grades are bonus. knowledge and skills are what we doctors should have. and manners! yes. and that's my friend,is something you can't get when you didn't interact with people much, which leads you to be this kind of terrible person.

i'm removing you from my friend list.that way,both of us will be happy. i wouldn't need to see,read, or hear your rubbish questions and comments.and you don't get any sins from being jealous of me. bye.

absurd

Aqeef Nabihan sudah besar dan sudah tumbuh gigi! and he looks like astro boy in here.haha.blame my sister.

nanti kakak nombor 3 balik,aqeef dah boleh jalan.sedih la macam ni.tak berjaya buat "buku perkembangan adik bongsu" seperti yang diimpikan.kita tunggu anak saudara ke-2 or anak sendiri *tiba-tiba*

i know i'm old when my mom asked me about the best food for baby.i mean,come on mak.you have 6 healthy children.you were the one who raised them not me! haha. tapi mengenang itu EMAK,maka tidaklah sampai hati nak cakap begitu.and last time mak jaga baby ialah 8 tahun lepas,maka tak hairan lah kalau mak lupa bagaimana mahu jaga baby.and maybe sebab mak ingat anak dia ni dah 4th year in medic,maka dia mungkin yakin dengan aku.haha. bantai la mak.

eh kejap.lagi setahun aje nak graduate. okay sekarang aku susah hati.

ada exam lusa and jumaat nanti.yang jumaat tu tak mengapa lah.ni lusa ni. one on one dengan doctor.ketaq lutut cek!

mak kata semalam ada orang datang rumah.tepiskan dulu.time is all i need,mak.

plus an iPad.

bye.

sakit

homesick.

even after used to being away from home for almost 10 years.amazing how the love for family could make me sad.Allah is great.