mimpi

I'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Taylor Swift; Enchanted

aku terkesan dengan dua ayat terakhir itu.sungguh sungguh.kerana itu yang aku fikirkan,selepas berakhirnya 26 September 2009.

p/s: nurul mazni mazlan,i miss u too.

untuk yg ke 400 kali

"dan betapa kosong jiwa ini;

sehingga air selautan tak memenuh haus aku,

awan selangit tak mengenyang lapar jiwa.

semoga malam masih membawa mimpi-mimpi

yang akan menyuap sedikit haus lapar yang ada."

FynnJamal;Betapa.

perasaan aku bukan untuk ditunjuk ke kamu kamu.mahu tafsir apa sekali pun,silakan.kalau tidak mahu diambil herankan pun,masih tidak aku kisah.

this ain't killin yo

Bismillaah..

sorry for the late update peeps.dah bersawang ni haaa.

i miss home.home as in a place where all family members gathered and having the same meal,and doing chores together.

this place ain't my home.tsk tsk.apa ni homesick tiba-tiba.mendadak sungguh.and i'm not going to talk about my exam,which is on next January and March.blerghhh.bosan gila kat blog pun nak tulis pasal exam.get a life wehhh.LOL.

oh,Kotie dah sampai Bangalore balik.dengan membawak 5,6 botol kicap.maka bolehlah kami hidup dengan gembira selama untuk beberapa bulan lagi.yeay!

okay yours truly sungguh penat sekarang.rutin harian masih tidak berubah.malas nak ulas.agak-agak sendiri la okay.but please put some limits to your imaginations okay.*u know what i mean*

nah,sebagai buah tangan*paleotak kau ayam* aku bagi 2,3 gambar untuk tatapan.letih ah asyik tengok huruf je kannnnnn.

okay tak.satu je cukup.nak banyak2 buat hape?!ok fine.nak banyak2 pergi flickr ok.

so-so

Bismillaah..

final exam is approaching,but my preparation is less than 5%.i should be running at full speed now.sigh.

and Nina promised me to buy Ranap for my birthday present.heh.

so much things to write,yet too little time.

take care.

be brave

Bismillaah..

as you all know,i'm a talkative person.i go and talk with every people i've met.but when it comes to a serious matter,i'm a girl with little words,because i believe,for people like me,who's in their mid twenties,know how to think rationally.

we are young,but that is not a way for us to act like a fool.you are young and stupid,but later,you should be old and wise.and the time to be wise is NOW.

so stop asking me on what should you do,because you knew the answer.you just wont admit it.reality hurts,my friend.but to be true to yourself is the biggest and proudest thing you can do.be brave and take the challenge.no one's gonna lead your life for you.it's you who make the decisions.

be brave and move on.it's just another chapter of your life.

who knows

2 in 1

Alongside her bed, english novels curled up with kitabs.

In her IPod, classic jazz mixed with nasyeed.

Through her talk, it’s thanks and syukran.

She’s in long veil and crocs.

She’s in jubah and jeans.

She smiles and smirks.

Why does these two favorites

Seems to oppose each other?

But what she's sure

She's just constantly happy with it.

got this from HERE

p/s: this depicts what i'm truly am.i don't know about you,but please,don't judge a book by its cover.someone you knew,might looks like a bad person,but who knows if he/she is the one who get up at night and meet Allah almighty through his/her night prayer.Allah knows.and we are ordinary human,who got no rights in judging other people.respect and love.May Allah blesses us all :)

random

i love random things.and i do random things.a lot.heck lots.

i am a BIG fan of JYJ,but i never care to download their songs before.but as i browsing randomly through tumblr pages,i found their lyrics and i downloaded their songs right away.

go out and dance in the rain,will you?

Bismillaah..

i seriously need to go out and snap some pictures.i don't even know why i spent almost 3k on that dslr.sheesh!

and another lens to come.and it costs me nearly 2k.so much for the self satisfaction huh? =.="

take care.

this is sick

Bismillaah..

salam and hye peeps.

it's been a while since i wrote about something serious here.okay fine.not so serious but pretty much normal for a homo sapien.i'm busy.seriously busy,but not with my study.it supposed to be filled with books and notes and whatnot,but i choose not to face all those things.i can't really get a grip on myself nowadays.i just seem to find and search for something new,something fresh,something fun.i don't know how to describe it.but i felt kind of...lonely?not that lonely,but i just felt that i need THAT something to push me and drag me into all those books and notes.

i always believe in myself.i am not that kind of person that will followed what other people been doing.they want to study,okay fine.study.i don't care.you want to eat your notes and sleep with your books?go on.i have no problem with that.

but i'm really upset when other people looked down on me.i mean come on.who are you to judge me?my parent?my alter ego?

absolutely NOT.

and i really,really,really hate to hear all those comments from your mouth.we are not even that close.so please stop it.i appreciate it,but just stop right there.they are good advices,but somehow i just can't put them into my life.we are different.way too different.so stop already.okayyy?

p/s: we are friends.no doubt.but we got our methods.so let me do it my way.

ADRENALINE RUSH 2010

the sports carnival aka Adrenaline Rush 2010 was over.enjoy the pictures.

p/s: i'm out of words for this past few days till...now.

penyokong Mighty Apes yang datang.tu hoodie telinga comey2 tu Korea mari.cis.

cuba teka sape

futsal.walaupun panas,melekit eii eii masih ramai jugak yang turun sokong.

she may looks innocent,but she plays all kind of sports.just name it.

Seniors.Blue Tiger.team Red Chilliez and Royal Bee tak sempat snap gambar.sebab yours truly sibuk menyokong.sekian.

Haziyah Hassan.dengan anak beliau.

ni tak payah ada caption.tiap kali aku kata "weh gambar,memang muka dia betul2 depan kamera"

be nicer

been up and down since past few hectic weeks.and lots of pictures to edit and upload bla bla bla.i'll put them up later.

oh,just stop by to say;

"BE NICER TO PEOPLE AND YOU'LL KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE THINGS AROUND YOU"

take care peeps.

random

past: those long phone conversation moments were simply the best.

present: and yes.you look way better in red.tee hee hee.

oh gosh,i wish Mazni's here!aha.tiba-tiba!

get well fast mak and abah!

mak and abah are unwell since past few days.both having fever and chills and can't wake up from their bed.how i terribly wish i'm in Malaysia,with both of them.kinda tearing me apart inside when i can't be with them through this hard time.

you must think that i'm freaking out too much.it is just a fever.right?but not for me.i feel so sad when i heard mak's voice through phone just now.she's kind of...crying?seriously,mak never cry,come hell or high water.well,at least not in front of me.

and when you are hundred miles away from your parent,you'll know how i felt when i heard her helpless voice.

please please please make some prayers for them to get better soon,will ya?thanks!

blessings :)

the sports day is over.well,this year,Mighty Apes is the champion.all praises to Allah,because without His guides and blessings,we are not gonna make it.and i feel so grateful since there's no such injuries and dramas like last year.hey,take it easy.sport is something you have to enjoy,to feel its benefits.of course,you want to be a winner when you enter any competition,but there's more than hamper and medals.if you get what i mean.

as for me,i'm getting closer and nicer with other people.i never been to Bett's house,let alone to have any sleepover or pillow talk with the circles of friends of hers.but hey,i did it. now i think about it, it was the nicest sleepover i ever had in these past few years.

oh i'm out of words.but i'm grateful because i'm blessed with this showers of loves around me these days.

heads up my friends.be proud of yourself and lets live a better life.enjoy your day and be grateful! :)

in my hopes

"At night when the stars light up my room.I sit by myself,talking to the moon.Try to get to you,in hopes you're on the other side talking to me too"

Bruno Mars: Talking to the Moon

rama-rama

hari ini perut aku penuh rama-rama.gementar.risau.takut.tapi dalam masa yang sama,aku berkobar-kobar.yang aku tahu,api tidak boleh dilawan api.aku sedang menumbuhkan ayat itu secara total ke dalam akal,dan hati.

dan selepas semua ini berakhir,aku kisahkan tentang sesuatu yang aku sudah hampir pegang,hampir aku simpan baik-baik dalam simpanan,tapi dengan tiba-tiba aku kehilangan.nanti.itu semua nanti.

jaga diri jangan pergi.aku datang nanti :)

yang aku ada,hanyalah cinta

"bila mana yang hanya aku mampu beri hanyalah cinta"

* sudah mimpi siang malam.terasa melayang atas angin begini,memang haru.

my boring Wednesday

been sleeping all day long.and i missed out my end posting exam(that was my actual plan),and also my 4 hours long lectures.the later one was unplanned okayy.

and i really think that i should enter sports school,other than med school.really.but He knows best.terima aje la buat waktu waktu begini.

and oh,i'm currently addcited to Phoenix; FynnJamal's.eventhough my other friends always like;

"lagu apa kau dengar ni?"

"kebendaaaaa la yang kau dengar ni"

"tak habis2 dengan lagu pelik macam tu"

well,that is me.and i am not you.that's for sure.

message in the picture.

to the person in the picture; let's dancing in the rain together.

"like before,i am a fool who only looking and searching for you"

FT Island;Tears are Falling Down

anak kecil yang pemalu

kesayangan aku nombor satu sekarang.uh,dia kesayangan semua orang di rumah.si bongsu.umur tujuh tahun.emak kata,dia ikut langkah aku.bising,kuat makan dan kuat tidur.betul dan tepat.emak memang hebat.

pergi,dan hormatkan.

orang kata,dengar lagu semacam ini,kau akan corrupt.heh.ambil cermin,tengok diri sendiri.cara setiap orang halusi perkara itu berbeza.kalau sama,hilanglah seronoknya.

bagi aku,ini, tentang jiwa yang tidak dipeduli.tentang jiwa yang mahu difahami.tapi jiwa itu tidak tahu bagaimana mahu meminta untuk di isi.tapi Tuhan itu Maha Mendengar.bisikkan walau selemah lemah suara,tetap didengar.tak perlu keluar suara,dalam hati.dibaca Tuhan,mesti.pasti.

terpulang.tidak mahu,tinggal.dan hormatkan yang lainnya.

yang paling aku cinta

"wahai ayahanda

bisikkanlah walau sekali

izinkan aku menumpangkan bahu

berikan aku seperca dari beban kamu"

FynnJamal; Biar

aku ulang-ulang rangkap ini berkali-kali.supaya aku tidak lupa,yang lelaki ini,yang Tuhan kirim untuk aku cinta dan sayang,lebih dari lelaki-lelaki lain di dunia ini sekarang.

dan yang duduk itu,punya syurga aku di tapak kakinya.mana mungkin aku lupa.

balik Disember ini,aku akan buat setiap perkara yang keluar dari mulut keduanya.tanpa ingkar.

memang mudah

memang mudah jika semua yang perlu aku fikirkan itu seringan gas helium.sungguh mudah jika apa yang aku perlu pikul itu hanyalah sehelai kertas putih tak bertanda.memang mudah jika apa yang aku mahukan dan impikan itu tidak memerlukan semua ini.semua yang aku sedang lalui ini.

dan setiap kali aku fikirkan,semakin nipis sabar aku jadinya.

sibuk

Bismillaah.

entri aku sebelum ini,beberapanya aku kaburkan dengan gambar-gambar.demi memacu mata engkau ke arah sesuatu yang tidak hendak engkau bacakan.

sekarang ni,makin sibuk.sungguh.dan dengan kesibukan ini,aku harap,paling sedikit,Tuhan beri aku berkat dalam hidup.tak banyak sedikit.cukup.untuk diteruskan hidup aku.

dan ketahuilah,sesungguhnya selepas ini,aku akan jarang-jarang ke mari.

Destiny

"our destiny is God's will.whatever will be,will be."

all over

"broken and scattered all over.that is..us"

patah tumbuh hilang berganti

"untuk setiap kali yang engkau diranapkan,jangan hentikan maafkan.patah tumbuh hilang berganti.kita manusia,memang akan diganti selang seli kan dengan manusia yang lainnya.itu,perubahan yang tidak mahu tidak,terpaksa engkau paksa relakan"

notakaki; kehilangan itu mesti.wajib.

loneliness

suddenly;

the trees seem to be taller,

i'm becoming smaller,

the moon is twice lonely,

and the stars are half bright.

that sudden moment,is when you're gone.

p/s: expressing someone's expression,not mine.

pain

"pain is when i see you,with your eyes looking at the different direction."

yours truly

HELP!!!

Bismillaah..

sangat geram.keyboard buat hal.i have to hold onto Fn key in order to type.aaaaaaaaa.siapa tahu macam mana nak betulkan?such an annoying thing lah!siapa tolong aku belanja dia makan.ini SERIOUS!

limitations

the clicking sounds of the car's signal,remind me to him.things i want to do,will not be always be the things we can do.even if we want to.true.100% true.there's limitation in everything.and even if you try to deny it,you can't get away with all your lame excuses.just accept the truth and live on.

pieces of Dubai

Bismillaah..

got back from Dubai last morning.and continue to sleep till 1 pm.tu pun sebab nak bye2 nadhirah yang nak balik malaysia pulak.

perlu ke cerita tentang percutian terulung tahun ni?tak payah.let the pictures tell you everything.

okay satu je.nak banyak2 pergi tengok dekat fb or flickr okay?now i need to get my hands off these keyboard and start packing my things to go back to Malaysia.

the memory lane

Bismillaah..

malam esok akan bergerak ke airport untuk boarding flight ke Dubai.seriously,i can't wait for this vacation.too much time to kill isn't good for your brain,because all u'll do is sit in front of the lappie and watched movies.heh.16 episodes of 1 hour duration(each of them),is a BAD thing for your eyes.haha.tapi baik lah aku habiskan benda merapu semua ni before habis cuti.nanti takde la kerja aku nak ngadap laptop time ada test.*kau sure ke ayam yang kau takkan ngadap laptop time ada test nanti?* LOL.sila abaikan monolog dalaman aku sekarang..

and i need a pair of new glasses.tahap kerabunan dah mencapai tahap yang tinggi ni.lepas tu tak reti2 nak buat spec baru.last time i wore my spec,was like....a year ago?lepas spec tu hilang,maka dengan automatiknya,aku tak pakai spec.hehe.rimas tau tak ada benda melekat atas batang hidung yang tak berapa nak mancung ni?lepas tu rasa pandangan tersekat.mata tak dapat oksigen yang cukup.sebab tu selalu tidur dalam lecture hall*alasan membela diri sendiri*

okayyy.bercakap mengenai movies,maka mari aku selitkan sikit pasal sejarah kehidupan bahasa jepun aku.

waktu tingkatan 1,cikgu bagi borang isi nak belajar bahasa asing yang mana.pilih.ada Arab,German dengan Jepun.aku memang la pilih jepun,sebab;

1. ingatkan kalau belajaq bahasa Jepun boleh lah faham cerita ni.boleh tengok tanpa subtitle.cerita apa?Power Office Girls.tayang kat tv3 pukul 6 petang.dia punya leader...fuhhhh...hebat!siap bawak tangga tiap kali berjalan.cool ke takkk?

ni lah leader dia yang cool tu.

2. akan membolehkan aku ke Jepun satu hari nanti.yang ni memang terbukti gagal.sebab konon cita2 doktor,lepas tu bila interview MARA,pi habaq kata "i dont mind if you send me to India.if that will make me a good doctor somehow".NAH!ambik hang!tercapai la cita2 nak ke India hang ayam.*eh eh aku bersyukur lagi ni.saja nak tambah spices dalam penulisan LOL*

3. akan memungkin kan aku berjumpa dengan Takuya Kimura.weh,for food-sake,TAKUYA KIMURA wehh!time tu famous gila kot dia.

walaupun semua hajat aku tu tak tercapai,tapi aku happy belajaq bahasa Jepun sebab aku kenal dengan cerita ni.sensei Anita dengan sensei Nirmala yang start tunjuk cerita ni dekat aku.aku suka sebab semua COMEL dalam cerita ni.hehe.character utama dia Totoro suka lompat2 pegang payung dalam hujan.lepas tu sengih menyeringai nampak gigi ja.comeyyyyyy!dengan bus kucing yang boleh stretching2 badan dia tu.

tapi sekarang memang minat dekat artis Korea pulak.patut kah aku daftar kelas bahasa Korea sekarang?AHHAHA.banyak masa hang ayam.nak ngadap buku Patho pun tak dak masa,ni lagi nak pi tambah subjek lain.pirrrraaaahhh.mimpi sakan no!

bebasss

Bismillaah..

the 4th term of this crazy-killing-MBBS course is OVER!alhamdulillaah.

but the ending just not that great,i guess.it's okay.

and now,i got all day long to sit in front of the lappie and watch movies,movies,movies and movies!hahahahaaha.not to forget,makan.

p/s: rasa malas nak upload gambar raya.

p/s/s: nantikan entry sengal dari aku time aku bosan.hehe

Eid Mubarak!

Bismillaah..

Eid Mubarak everyone.raya in here is the same old as in Malaysia.nothing different,except for the absence of mom and dad.but it's okay.

well,life seems less interesting nowadays.i even think of shutting down this blog.

the end of Ramadhan

Bismillaah..

Ramadhan is coming to its end.tapi apakah amalan aku sudah cukup dan sudah betul-betul diperbaiki?

on the other hand,baju raya(s) dah sampai,along with tart nenas and serunding ikan bilis yang mak buat.i'm speechless.i miss my family.but it's okay.this is the best i could get.alhamdulillaah.

i better get going now,because the Pathology's practical exam is tomorrow morning.lotsa slides to study and remember.

raised your hands and make du'aa.may Allah blesses us all,always and forever.inshaAllah.

rants

Bismillaah..

the first day of hectic weeks was.....HECTIC.

penat gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

refresh

Bismillaah..

people tend to forget,once they get comfortable with other things.

CYNICAL but TRUE.

p/s: have you recite your prayer for Gaza today?

credits to THIS

segi tiga

Bismillaah..

okay tuan tuan puan puan.aku sepatutnya baca buku yang berlambak,tapi kalau nak baca,memang takkan pernah habis.maka biar lah dulu mereka bergembira sesama mereka di atas meja.lagipun aku dah bagi Milo secawan.buat lah sesi ice-breaking ke hape antara diorang.aku nak layan blues zaman remaja sekejap.

cewah.

okay.mari mulakan.

tadi baru beberapa minit,aku pergi jenguk satu blog ni.dia ada ajar pasal macam mana nak pilih kain raya.erk,apakah?

ni ada nostalgia kain raya aku dengan kakak2 aku.

satu hari,mak balik dengan muka puas hati dan satu bungkus plastik tertulis "Kedai Yang Yang".kami semua pelik.apesal muka mak bersinar-sinar?tak lama lepas tu,mak panggil semua anak perempuan dia pergi ke ruang tamu.ada 4 orang semuanya.lepas tu mak bukak simpulan plastik tu.

"nah,pilih la nak yang mana.corak sama,warna ja lain"

kakak aku yang first terkam dulu,sebab dari ayat mak,dia tau dah,tu ialah KAIN untuk buat baju raya.aku yang otak lembab sebab baru darjah dua masa tu,duk terkial-kial pikiaq,

"alah..ingatkan makanan"

adik aku pulak dah cop awai2 warna ungu.feminin habih la kononnya.lantakkk.asalkan gembira.kakak aku yang sulung dah ambik warna kuning,sebab dia kata tahun ni boipren dia pun warna kuning jugak baju raya.mak bagi jelingan membunuh satu das,dia terus diam.gatal!baru tingkatan 2 dah ada boipren.patut la kawen awai(keluaq tajuk dah ni).

tiba-tiba....

"mak,warna cokelat ada dak?"aku tanya kat mak aku.

tapi;

"aku nak yang warna cokelat ni lah!segak woo buat kebarung!"

tu ayat dari kakak aku yang second.dia darjah 4 time tu.tapi tiba tiba kepala aku macam berasap.apa ni....aku dah kasik hint awai dah2 yang aku nak warna cokelat.ni bikin aku panasss ni.

"woi,aku nak warna cokelat la.aku cakap dulu tadi"

"hang lambat sapa suruh.takdak2.aku punya yang ni.hang ambik warna putih ni"

apa ke ngok sangat kakak aku ni.aku yang hitam legam ni dia nak bagi warna putih?ada yang cakap aku gagak pakai kain kapan karang...aku tak puas hati.aku bangun,ingat nak bantai dia dua tiga das dengan kickflip.*kami adik beradik semua belajaq tae kwon do*

tapi dia lagi pantas.otak dia memang ligat.dia ambik gunting yang ada dekat sebelah tv,lepas tu...

Zaaaap!

sedar2 jari aku dah berdarah,ibu jari belah kiri.ada macam bentuk segitiga.darah meleleh-leleh.sekali sama laju dengan ayaq mata aku.

mak dekat sebelah dah membebel;"semua perempuan tapi perangai macam jantan.payah sungguh la.yang kak ni pun takmau beralah.nak jugak berebut.lain kali mak beli kain ala2 baju tadika kemas la senang!sama ja corak kotak2 warna merah tu."

sampai sekarang parut tu ada lagi.nah ambik tengok ni;

tapi bagus gak kak aku buat gitu,dah nangis2,mak terus suruh pi bukak posa.dapat makan ikan keli masak sambal tengahari tu :)

belum dewasa sebenarnya

Bismillaah..

it'e been a while since i last wrote something quite serious over here.well,let's get to the point.

sekarang,kesihatan semakin merudum.caught a cold,and now having fever.biasalah,musim nak exam ni,memang badan minta bermanja-manja.jealous dengan buku2 yang diberi perhatian lebih.

alhamdulillaah,menyambut Ramadhan di sini,tak lah terlalu hambarrrrrr seperti yang aku bayangkan.cuma ada sedikit rasa sedih dan terkilan sebab tak boleh sambut raya tahun ni,dengan mak abah.takkan ada sapuan lembut di ubun2 sejurus selepas sembahyang Subuh berjemaah di pagi raya.takkan ada riuhnya mulut mak membebel membahagi tugas menyiapkan rumah untuk tetamu.

sepanjang Ramadhan ini,sudah 4 kali aku called mak.dan setiap kali itu juga,airmata memang akan turun sederas derasnya.mujur ada selesema,yang aku guna sebagai penyamaran.malu lah dah besar menangis.cuma itulah,bila jadi begitu,aku sendirinya tersedar,yang diri aku yang aku dakwa sudah besar,sudah cukup matang,sudah boleh kahwin(kononlah),sebenarnya..masih lagi punya jiwa anak kecil mak dan abah.

bohong kalau aku kata aku sudah dewasa.

dewasa apa kalau masih teringin tidur didakap mak?

dewasa apa kalau masih teringin berjalan dipimpin tangan kasar abah?

entah.

tahun ini aku punya banyak rencana.hujung tahun ini tambah-tambahnya.tapi rancangan teliti,jika tiada keizinan Allah,apalah maknanya.semoga semuanya berjalan seperti yang dirancang.

serak

i love FT Island's Lee Hong Ki's voice.

HAHA.suara serak-serak basah dia sedap.

lupakan

Bismillaah..

"bila engkau pergi,bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit.

bila engkau pergi,air mengalir takkan berhenti."

true.no matter how life is treating you,you have to realize that losing someone/something is not the end of your world.

it's your world,you decide how to live on.keep the chin up,and walk on.