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Bismillaah..

hai hai semua.bertemu kembali kita dalam...diam.maafkan aku yang tengah hampir tak betul berperang dengan homework dan pelajaran yang menimbun nimbun mintak perhatian tapi tetap diabaikan.hoh panjangnya ayat!

oleh kerana nak balik Khamis ni,which is LUSA maka kena siapkan semua homework dan belajar apa yang patut sebelum pulang ke Malaysia.dan memang akan bawak balik buku Patho ni sebab lepas balik ke India 5 hari,dah ada test.cis.sabar.

esok rabu.and it's gonna be a very long and tiring day and busiest day in this week.esok lah nak keluar beli..erk malas nak cakap.esok lah kena lipat baju simpan elok2.esoklah kena packing barang nak bawak balik.esok la nak pergi siapkan assignment Pharmaco sebab bila balik 30hb dah sampai due date hantar kerja =.="

yang atas ni bukan mengeluh.itu luahan dalaman setelah di tahan selama beberapa hari.

takpe.aku usaha keras dengan bayangkan balik ni boleh melantak durian,rambutan rambai char kuew teow secret recipe tom yam kung nasi lemak sambal sotong manis marshmellow halal sushi murah dan semuanya!oh ya.lauk kenduri jua sebab Lisa sayang dah ajak pergi kenduri dekat rumah dia.

menjadi semua plan yang dirancang.inshaAllah.

lepas tu habis segala azab,jangan ingat boleh bersenang lenang sebab exam dah dekat sangat.dan kemuncaknya ialah...

1 Ramadhan.

sungguh tidak sabar.sungguh.eventough dah rasa nak nangis bila fikir tahun ni kena raya di India.dan yang lagi sedih,hari ni raya,esok exam theory.haruslah makan rendang depan buku.lupakan lah semua plan nak main bunga api ke hape.tsk tsk.sungguh hiba.

oleh itu,aku nak pergi masak mee segera untuk hilangkan kehibaan.

terbang pergi

Bismillaah..

today is not a productive day.

selamat tinggal dunia dan isi-isi kejamnya.

aku mahu pergi terbang ke bulan malam ni.

post stressed week syndrome

Bismillaah..

rasa tak sedap badan.balik dari lecture empat jam,terus langkah kaki ke farmasi.beli paracetamol empat bijik.balik rumah telan 2 bijik dengan air masak then sembahyang and tidur.

sungguh rasa tak larat,tapi kena gagahkan diri buat record Microb and baca asphyxial death untuk test Selasa depan.

kepala rasa berat,dan tenaga rasa dah melayang keluar dari badan.sungguh,i think i have post-stressed week syndrome la because past 2 weeks had been hectic and difficult.

sekarang nak sambung buat record Microb.

our deeds

Bismillaah..

the hectic weeks are gone.at least for now.because i'll be having my second internal assessment in less than one and a half month.but still,i can breath easily for these becoming few days.*sigh*

but the viva(s) and small tests will be coming again and again and again.fine.i'll accept the reality.i am a medical student that really needs to get a grip on herself.life is a continuous assessment anyway,right? =.="

besides,there's bigger assessment from all that tests. it's when we reach that day,the day when all our deeds are counted.all of it,the bads and the goods. so we better be prepared for that.

eh eh Azian Hana tiba tiba jadi serious.hehe

on the other hand,my mom just told me one bad news;

"makkkk,dik yan balik nanti nak makan durian banyakkkkk banyakkk tau!"

"mana ada dah durian.susah la pulak nak carik kali ni.beli kat giant aja lah ya?"

uwaaaa,sedihnya. here's in India,one durian itself will cost you around rs500,that's around rm30++. now,how sad is that? keciwa lah macam ni.nak pergi tidur la(alasan manusia malas nak belajar)

=_____="

spesifikasi pertama

Bismillaah

I'll be going back to Malaysia on this 22nd July till 30th July!

^__________^

"dalam diri kita,mesti ada beberapa spesifikasi yang akan tarik balik diri kita,untuk kembali ke tempat bermula,walau di mana pun kita berada sekarang.dalam kes aku,salah satu dari spesifikasi itu ialah keluarga aku.sebab dalamnya ada mak yang melahir dan membesarkan,abah yang mengasihkan aku,adik-adik yang menggembirakan dan kakak-kakak yang meriakan aku dan hidupku.ada semua itu,aku sudah cukup puas."

two different worlds

Bismillaah..

p/s: here's some excessive words and melancholic drama. just leave if you're searching for any recipes or jokes.this entry is not the place you're looking for.

i spent the entire day thinking about the things i wanna told her.even when eating that delicious ice cream at Swensen pun,i kept on thinking about her reaction when she hear my stories.i have tons of things to share.i want to tell her how my heart was broken and fallen into pieces when i didn't get to hear from her for almost 3 months.not even a word.i want to tell her how hurt myself was when someone make me like an outsider.

i even rejected the calls from that person,just to make myself free and available for her.i borrowed my roommate's phone,so that i can call her and tell her everything.

i expect her to listen to me even if i called her 12 at night.

and that's because i thought that we are best friend.best friend that will stayed through thick and thin.

and now,she just proved that all my thoughts were wrong.i really can't expect anything from now onwards.

and yes.you are right.we are living in the two different worlds.

"lost is the only thing we had,without the chance to bid adieu" FynnJamal;No More

weird habit

Bismillaah..

done with all three tests for today.yes.i have 3 different exams on SATURDAY!=.="

i'm heading to Kak Ana's for usrah in less than an hour.this weekend just might be the hectic one i ever had since last few months.i really want to sleep right now,but i tell you,i have this weird habit.

i can't sleep when i feel too tired.my brain won't function,thus i can't read any books. i even tried to read the most boring novel ever,just to make myself sleepy.but it doesn't work.i just keep on rolling ups and downs the bed,but my eyes still be opened wide.*sigh*

then pergi minum susu dekat dapur,sebab susu selalu bagi aku mengantuk.but luas jugak mata ni.

doa tidur jangan cakap la.berjuta kali ulang pun tak boleh tidur jugak.sungguh rasa miserable..

nak call manusia yang disayangi kat Malaysia pun tak boleh.

sebab tu datang merapu kat sini.aaaaaa.

NAK TIDUR!

combo

Bismillaah..

esok dapat exam combo.nak tau apa?

Viva(bukan kereta Viva perodua tu) Pathology,Theory OBG and Theory Pathology.

i'm not a hardworking student and i'm way too far from being a genius.so please pray for me.hai rimaslah banyak exam ni.

apa ada

Bismillaah..

"kosong.selagi belum ada makna yang betul-betul padan,dan mewakilkan jiwa aku dengan sebetul dan seikhlasnya,maka ia itu masih kosong."

p/s: goodbye and sorry bring the same meaning,each time you spilled them on me.

ajaib nya

Bismillaah..

ni entri aku yang ke 331.wah!banyak dah merapu rupanya.haha.

tadi siang aku tak pergi kelas practical Microb.heyp!bukan bangga,cuma nak terang something.naik tangga dah rasa perit semacam.rupanya kapas nipis dekat luka terbukak.bila benang yang jahit sama dengan kulit and subcutaneous tissue(go google kalau tak tau),dah bergesel dengan kain baju kurung.amboi amboi amboi!bukan main perittttt.aku tukar arah.

dari arah ke lab,aku pusing ke surau.

masuk surau bantai tidur satu round.bangun sebab pehhh..ada orang bukak kipas dalam surau.ya Allah.punya la sejuk Bangalore sekarang ni sampai kipas nombor 1 tu pun rasa macam tengah winter(tau la Bangalore takdak salji,kasi can ah kat aku).

dah bangun terus la baca Pathology.duduk diam2 kejap kat situ.then Farina masuk and then,a miracle happened!

apa?apa?

aku pergi makan dekat kedai sebelah kedai buku Ganesh!ajaib ke tak ajaib tu?kedai tu dah beroperasi nak dekat 5,6 bulan jugak la.aku ni tak pernah nak jejak kaki masuk kedai tu.sekali tadi,pergi makan tengahari dekat situ.

terasa bangga dengan diri sendiri.haha.

okay tu aje.semangat cerita pengalaman masuk kedai makan yang orang lain dah beribu kali makan kat situ.

dah bye nak pergi jenguk web airasia sebab nak beli tiket balik bulan tujuh.weeeehoooo!

eeeeeeeeee..LIPAN!

Bismillaah...

coklat Cadbury dairy milk dah tinggal separuh dalam masa 5 minit.sungguh kurang sopan.makan lah kau ayam,makan.balik bulan tujuh kena kutuk baru tau.haha.aku kisah apa.aku cantik.tak kira,cantik jugak.haha.

siang tadi pergi cuci luka yang dekat betis.ish.ngeri dan ngilu bila doktor pelatih yang cucikan.ditekan tekan and di picit picit iodin kat luka tu.aku try mengaduh dua tiga kali,bagi signal sakit.dia buat taktau aja.cis.okay.bagi chance la dia berlatih cuci luka.

tapi yang tak bestnya,dia tak wrap kaki aku.dia pergi tampal sehelai kapas nipis,lepas tu letak selotep aje dekat situ.dan benar.aku ni sangat rajin bukak2 kapas tu.kenapa kau rajin ayam?

sebab excited weh tengok ada "lipan" 7 cm dekat betis =.="

balik bulan tujuh nak tanya mak agak-agak hantaran dah kurang berapa ribu?hahaha.

diam ayam!

batch

Bismillaah...

i don't have any updates yang best-best.my days just plain boring.even UNTOLD pun baru dapat tambah 4-5 muka.huh.

while browsing through facebook,i stumbled upon my senior's reunion pictures in Pangkor.i bet they really had a great time.nampak sangat rapat.serious kagum.siap ber-banner segala.

am not saying yang my batchmates tak rapat,but most of us don't really get along very well.i'm hoping for more pure friendships between us.i don't know if i'm the only person feeling like this,but this is what i feel.

but whatever it is,i hope you guys have a good life and appreciate every moment you had.hidup baik-baik.

oh cerita di atas is about my school mates,bukan kawan university di sini.eh rasa sangat dewasa gelar diri sendiri pelajar university.hmpphh.

oh my calf is getting better.but still sakit bila berjalan.takpe ayam takpe.kifarah dosa.

entri separuh cinta

Bismillaah...

LAPTOP DAH BOLEH CONNECT INTERNET.

aku betulkan sendiri laptop ni.lepas ni agak2 kalau ambik master in computer engineering ok tak?dah nak start sengal lah tu.

and because my lappie dah okay,maka sila nantikan entri penuh perasaan yang seterusnya.sekian.

yours truly.