this rain,will it stop?

i like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
i like riding my scooter alone, and walking at the park alone.
i like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
it gives me time to think, to set my mind free.

and i love playing in the rain alone.

but when i see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with her best friend, i realize that even though i like being alone, i don't fancy being alone.

the sky is beautiful, but the people are sad.

i just need someone who won't run away. someone who will stand with me in the rain, and smiles while watching me being the silly me.

"Rain always falls so it will repeat again..When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well"

greater things are waiting ahead

life has been pretty exciting.

my bronchial asthma is getting worse now,and the doctor actually put me on the steroid therapy. am not very keen on his decision,but i believe he knows better, so i think i better get used to it. 

this is one of Allah's ways of telling me to repent on my sins that i've done in my daily life. so i'm pretty much grateful for this test.

tak balik raya?

tidak akan balik beraya di Malaysia tahun. tahun ini bakal aidilfitri bersama rendang ayam tanpa daun kunyit. takkan ada ketupat palas. semua bakal jadi 3 in 1.

sebab tahun ni tak balik raya. housemates semua pun tak balik raya,so tak ada lah terkilan sangat kalau tak balik.

the problem is, dah janji dengan mak abah nak balik raya nanti. and takkan balik untuk cuti 3 minggu bulan oktober nanti.

hujung minggu bila call rumah, tak berani nak bagi tahu mak yang anak nombor 3 ni tak jadi balik raya.

T.T

raya tahun ni bakal jadi meriah. sebab apa? sebab tahun ni balik raya di Kedah. yes Kedah yang ada Mak Tam yang paling pandai buat laksam and rendang daging hitam. ada Mak Su yang cake coklat dia memang tip top. ada Pak Ndak yang ketupat palas dia paling lemak dan enak antara semua ketupat yang aku pernah makan. and ada family.

nanti jealous tengok gambar family beraya tanpa diri sendiri.tapi macam mana? sedih lah kalau macam ni.

OSCAR

posted in Obstetric and Gynaecology department for 2 months.and this is the end of 2 weeks already.time sure flies fast.and to be honest,this is the department i've been waiting for all this time.it's the busiest but the most exciting department,despite the fact that the doctors are no where to be found whenever needed.they are just so busy!and that added some more spices to this posting.

i never have an ambition before.i got into medic because my mom wanted me to and i don't know any other courses,except for medic,engineering,art and literature.i once insisted on literature,but my mother was so persistent,i can't even say no to her.

but years later,i found myself immersed in a whole new and exciting world.where people lives were saved.

yes,i might complained about this and that,but still,i love to be a doctor. a great and reliable doctor. inshaAllah.


p/s: will finished my MBBS in October 2013.that's one and a half year from now. i'm hoping for the best! :)

Easy

never once i felt something like this.the first,and the last,i hope.

and to everyone involved in these past 2 and a half years,thank you.and i'm sorry.

jodoh itu urusan Tuhan.kalau sudah usaha,dan sudah doa,tapi masih tak mampu diteruskan,maka apalah daya aku.

yang lebih baik itu tetap ada.

plastic

semalam aku bukak satu link di facebook.gambar artis korea,yang di upload oleh orang Melayu,Islam di Malaysia.dalam bahagian komen,penuh dengan ayat caci maki artis tu;

"eleh,plastic je semua ni.u olls jangan la terpedaya"

"boleh la cantik macam ni kalau dah cucuk sana,cucuk sini."

"tu hidung dia tu palsu la tu.tajam gile kot.tak mungkin ah cantik macam ni.konfem buat plastic surgery!"

"eeeee plastic!ptuih!"

pelik.sumpah aku pelik.

persoalan aku satu; apa perlu nya kau kutuk artis tu?

aku di sini bukan mempertahankan artis tu.cuma aku pelik.

biarlah artis tu nak buat pembedahan plastic satu badan sekali pun,yang kau nak tambah dosa kutuk orang tu kenapa?

atau kau jealous kau tak boleh jadi cantik macam tu?

*diam*

kau agak agak; kalau Tuhan tak kata ubah mana-mana tubuh badan,(kecuali atas sebab sebab kesihatan),tu berdosa...kau nak ubah tak muka kau jadi cantik?

mesti nak. jangan tipu.

lepas tu aku scroll lagi kat bawah.ada satu orang cina Singapore ni,pergi tanya soalan;

"why meh orang Islam tak boleh buat plastic surgery?"

tak berjawab soalan tu.ada la satu dua tulis; "dosa.berdosa"

*diam*

kalau betul kau tahu itu dosa,kenapa tak dijelaskan kenapa berdosanya ubah kecantikan fizikal macam tu?

paling tidak cakap lah;

"berdosa.Tuhan tak bagi ubah apa-apa sebab kami dah cukup cantik.dan kami cukup gembira dengan apa yang Tuhan kami bagi"

*diam*

kadang kadang aku rasa orang Malaysia paling kelakar :/

i knew it.

Qaseh dah pandai berjalan.Aqeef dah pandai memanjat sana sini.can't wait for holidays.will pinched those chubby cheeks everyday!

and i have exams on next monday,tuesday,friday,saturday.

and also on the next next monday,tuesday,wednesday and thursday.

the never ending exams in the life of a medic student.

p/s: one of my seniors wrote his as her fb status; ' i lost my first patient today.i'm sorry.really really sorry'

that,is the dark side of being a doctor.bukan senang nak selamatkan orang lain =.="