Hello and Goodbye

it's Monday,so let me whine about last week tragedy.

so many bad news in the past week. first,my exam marks went missing.because the clerk misplaced them so things were so messy, till the doctor decided to re-do the exam. and it's MEDICINE. i knew about the exam at 11.30am and the exam was supposed to start at 2.30pm. u do the maths then. i have to prepare my mind(and heart) for the exam.it was such a short notice.last minute decision by the doctors.

did my viva with the doctor,everything went smoothly until the doctor asked me what happened with my previous marks.how can they went missing without a trace. i felt so sad at that time,and depressed too,so i cried. i cried in front of the doctor. shame on you AzianHana.

i thought i was going to fail the exam, but Alhamdulillah, i passed it,even with just 7.5/10. 

and then i got involved with an accident the day before the exam,twice in one week. had some bruises here and there on my bodies,but still able to attend classes,futsal and netball practices.

on last Saturday, the Summer Sweat 2012 started and alhamdulillah,again, we managed to get into the finals for futsal and netball.

and we won the gold for both futsal and netball. went home with a smile on my face, and bruises on my body. 

so,at the end, what i can say is, life is unfair,but God is good. 

will be praying hard for a better week then :)

p/s : i miss home.

get real.

"Love is indeed a wonderful emotion, accorded to the humanity by God, but it is important to distinguish whether that love is real or not, and to consider who it is directed to, and what sentiments it is founded on"


Romanticism : A weapon of Satan, page 14.


i was being unnecessarily busy with the exams, kpop and daily routines, till i have no time to sit and think. and it's about time to read some useful books and feed myself with good thoughts. 

this rain,will it stop?

i like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
i like riding my scooter alone, and walking at the park alone.
i like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
it gives me time to think, to set my mind free.

and i love playing in the rain alone.

but when i see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with her best friend, i realize that even though i like being alone, i don't fancy being alone.

the sky is beautiful, but the people are sad.

i just need someone who won't run away. someone who will stand with me in the rain, and smiles while watching me being the silly me.

"Rain always falls so it will repeat again..When it stops, that’s when I will stop as well"

greater things are waiting ahead

life has been pretty exciting.

my bronchial asthma is getting worse now,and the doctor actually put me on the steroid therapy. am not very keen on his decision,but i believe he knows better, so i think i better get used to it. 

this is one of Allah's ways of telling me to repent on my sins that i've done in my daily life. so i'm pretty much grateful for this test.

tak balik raya?

tidak akan balik beraya di Malaysia tahun. tahun ini bakal aidilfitri bersama rendang ayam tanpa daun kunyit. takkan ada ketupat palas. semua bakal jadi 3 in 1.

sebab tahun ni tak balik raya. housemates semua pun tak balik raya,so tak ada lah terkilan sangat kalau tak balik.

the problem is, dah janji dengan mak abah nak balik raya nanti. and takkan balik untuk cuti 3 minggu bulan oktober nanti.

hujung minggu bila call rumah, tak berani nak bagi tahu mak yang anak nombor 3 ni tak jadi balik raya.

T.T

raya tahun ni bakal jadi meriah. sebab apa? sebab tahun ni balik raya di Kedah. yes Kedah yang ada Mak Tam yang paling pandai buat laksam and rendang daging hitam. ada Mak Su yang cake coklat dia memang tip top. ada Pak Ndak yang ketupat palas dia paling lemak dan enak antara semua ketupat yang aku pernah makan. and ada family.

nanti jealous tengok gambar family beraya tanpa diri sendiri.tapi macam mana? sedih lah kalau macam ni.

OSCAR

posted in Obstetric and Gynaecology department for 2 months.and this is the end of 2 weeks already.time sure flies fast.and to be honest,this is the department i've been waiting for all this time.it's the busiest but the most exciting department,despite the fact that the doctors are no where to be found whenever needed.they are just so busy!and that added some more spices to this posting.

i never have an ambition before.i got into medic because my mom wanted me to and i don't know any other courses,except for medic,engineering,art and literature.i once insisted on literature,but my mother was so persistent,i can't even say no to her.

but years later,i found myself immersed in a whole new and exciting world.where people lives were saved.

yes,i might complained about this and that,but still,i love to be a doctor. a great and reliable doctor. inshaAllah.


p/s: will finished my MBBS in October 2013.that's one and a half year from now. i'm hoping for the best! :)

Easy

never once i felt something like this.the first,and the last,i hope.

and to everyone involved in these past 2 and a half years,thank you.and i'm sorry.

jodoh itu urusan Tuhan.kalau sudah usaha,dan sudah doa,tapi masih tak mampu diteruskan,maka apalah daya aku.

yang lebih baik itu tetap ada.