say goodbye

Bismillaah..

it's the third day of Ramadhan.and i'm doing good.alhamdulillaah.

but again,the memories of Ramadhan with my family strucked me yesterday.such a waste when all of your close friends and family will be there in Malaysia,celebrating both Ramadhan and Eid,and you are the only one who couldn't be there.

life just isn't.haih.

hiba tak sudah 1

Bismillaah..

selamat menyambut Ramadhan yang mulia.semoga tahun ini,akan memberi pengajaran dan lebih banyak kebaikan kita semua.inshaAllah.

tahun ni yours truly akan berpuasa di India,tarawikh di India dan raya juga di India.sungguh tragis kali ini ya tuan tuan dan puan puan.hiba campur pilu campur excited pula.apakah excited pulak ni?mungkin sebab ini first time raya without cium tangan mak abah tok nenek pakcik makcik.ini juga la pertama kali raya tak dapat duit raya.tsk tsk.

dan pada malam raya juga,akan mengadap buku,sebab lusanya ada exam theory yang scary.tsk tsk.sudah lah jatuh,di timpa tangga.

sekian entry hiba-tak-sudah aku.

tidak sihat

Bismillaah..

yours truly is not well.please note that she'll be gone for few days,due to her bad health condition.

sungguh,sekarang aku selalu hilang nikmat kesihatan yang Allah bagi.and betul kata mak;

"you are a prone-to-accident person"

=.="

love

Bismillaah..

"where are you?"

"in your heart."

the day i found myself

Bismillaah..

salam and greetings to all.

i'm supposed to be busy like a bee.i have lotsa works to do.i have tons of words and sentences in the books,waiting to be read by me.i have few thousands papers to write on.and yet,i found myself typing these words out of my head.

sigh.

i sensed something weird about me now.

when other people are worried and stressed about the study,i can just smile and sit and doing nothing.for example,my classmates were very furious and worried about the Patho test last few days.they were studying like mad.and kept on saying;

"takuttt nya!tak habis baca lagi!"

and i just..smile.despite the fact that i haven't read any single lines of the topic.not even a word.seriously.i'm not kidding.i plainly studying the topics on respiratory system,just few hours before the test,which is likely to be from 11 pm to 1.30 am.and..that's it.

i don't know what my marks would be.i don't even care about it.

and surprisingly,i don't feel like worrying over my marks.this may be a bad sign.i felt bad.i felt like i'm doing the wrong thing[ayam,kau memang tengah buat salah].

=.="

but the good thing is,i'm alive.and i'm still having my emotions.kalau dulu every time nak test mesti rasa macam zombie.rasa tak puas hati dengan diri sendiri.

i wonder,am i doing the right thing?ke aku sepatutnya hentak kepala kat dinding macam zaman sekolah menengah dulu?

*smile and went back to sleep*

maaf la,emo sikit.

"i don't believe in coincidence,but i do believe in fate."

for someone who never fails to create tears from my eyes,well done.you've done great.now let me running and doing damage control by myself.

but again,it's not us who control our lives.we are Him's.forever and ever.let just hope for the best we could get,after all these years.

sedikit dulu

bilamana yang hadir itu cuma bayangan kamu,aku jadi diam di situ.terus seperti batu,menunggu dipecahkan manusia lain.

punya sangat banyak kisah untuk dikisahkan,cuma sekarang diserang selesema dan sakit kepala.dan ujian Patho yang akan menyusul lagi 3 hari,buat aku sakit jiwa raga kepala semua.tinggal dulu dengan yang sedikit-sedikit ini.

jaga diri :)