the day i found myself

Bismillaah..

salam and greetings to all.

i'm supposed to be busy like a bee.i have lotsa works to do.i have tons of words and sentences in the books,waiting to be read by me.i have few thousands papers to write on.and yet,i found myself typing these words out of my head.

sigh.

i sensed something weird about me now.

when other people are worried and stressed about the study,i can just smile and sit and doing nothing.for example,my classmates were very furious and worried about the Patho test last few days.they were studying like mad.and kept on saying;

"takuttt nya!tak habis baca lagi!"

and i just..smile.despite the fact that i haven't read any single lines of the topic.not even a word.seriously.i'm not kidding.i plainly studying the topics on respiratory system,just few hours before the test,which is likely to be from 11 pm to 1.30 am.and..that's it.

i don't know what my marks would be.i don't even care about it.

and surprisingly,i don't feel like worrying over my marks.this may be a bad sign.i felt bad.i felt like i'm doing the wrong thing[ayam,kau memang tengah buat salah].

=.="

but the good thing is,i'm alive.and i'm still having my emotions.kalau dulu every time nak test mesti rasa macam zombie.rasa tak puas hati dengan diri sendiri.

i wonder,am i doing the right thing?ke aku sepatutnya hentak kepala kat dinding macam zaman sekolah menengah dulu?

*smile and went back to sleep*