safe and sound

Bismillaah..

lintas langsung dari KLIA,Azian Hana dah selamat sampai Malaysia.

alhamdulillah.

balik balik balik

Bismillaah..

I'M GOING HOME TONIGHT.

semua caps lock.can you feel my excitement?hahaha


well,i will be busy like a bee.apa2 pun,updates selepas habis cuti.

jumpa lagi.jaga diri.

bye2.

May Allah blesses us :)

naaayy,ain't that sweet?

Bismillaah..

"if water is beautiful,you'd be ocean"

mulut manis macam gula.rasa nak pangggg pun ada.

kewajipan

Bismillaah..

i ate butter prawn with plain rice.about 5 minutes ago.

but i also ate ayam masak lemak,sayur kubis goreng and sambal at 6.30 pm tadi.

the time now is 10.57pm.

see the time gap.it's not even 6 hours,tapi aku dah makan 2 kali..tu belum masuk lunch dengan breakfast.

=.="

i'm not blaming myself.semua exam punya pasal.stressing me out to the max.kan dah makan banyak.seriously.i was sitting calmly on my bed(tak tidur,bukan),reading those pathology thingy..and then,suddenly,i found myself cooking those butter prawn.in the middle of the night.huh.

living here,i cant stop myself from cooking.dah takde benda lain nak buat.hadap buku aje sure put some more pressure.itu sungguh tidak baik.aiseh.like makan tengah malam tu baik sangat la.cis.

but i realize one thing.

my cooking skills are getting better.woot woot!masuk bakul angkat sendiri.ceh.

mesti la happy,as back there in Malaysia,everyone in my house know how to cook properly.my mom kind of teach us how to cook.actually,she forced us to.haha.

but in my house,i'm the biggest loser,when it comes to cook.

i dont know why,but everytime i cooked for my family,there must be something wrong somewhere.masin la.gulai cair la.masak lemak santan tak masak la.even my youngest brother lagi pandai masak than me.

and believe it or not,each one of us,the girls in the family,memang akan masak for the whole famili.be it lunch or dinner.even time raya and kenduri sekalipun.semua kena handle sendiri.

my first sister started to cook for family dinner,since she was 12.when i say cook,it means,EVERYDAY.each meal.

then when she went to further her studies elsewhere,my second sister took over her duty.and she,the si degil number 2 start masak for family since she was 11.now you can ask whatever you wanna eat.she'll cook for you.she even prepared rendang and all stuffs for jamuan raya by herself.and yang paling tak tahan,dia masak untuk majlis tunang dia sendiri haritu.hahahaa.

my mom just tolong potong daging and of course,mengarah itu ini.

and now my sister,the fourth girl in family is taking over the other two's job.she cooks for my family now.she is now in form five.younger than me and even her dishes taste better than mine =.="

so,what's up with me?tak masak ke?pemalas ke?kenapa tak pandai??

because i studied in boarding school.asal balik rumah je,mesti mintak diorang masak itu ini.lama2 memang tak tahu sangat memasak.

but,after habis foundation,my mom started nagging on me on this thing.and because i had too much time to kill,sebab cuti berbulan bulan,maka belajar la masak.

now at least,i can say that i know how to cook.let alone the taste.asal nampak rupa and boleh makan,okay la kan?

i once asked my mom,bout the reasons behind all the conspirations to force us to cook.

and she said,it's for our future.no,no.not because nanti nak kahwin kena masak untuk suami,but when duduk jauh from her,she wants to make sure that we are not starving to death.senang cerita,tak mati kebuluran kalau mak takde.

but she added up some new sentences,which made me laughed.

"lagipun senang hidup mak nanti.dah ada 4,5 anak perempuan.kalau tak boleh tolong mak buat apa?penat mak teran serlah hangpa keluaq,takkan sikit ni pun tak boleh tolong.kan?"

ha'ah.yelah mak...

yes,i do

Bismillaah..


this is my take 5 for tonight.eceh.


seriously Microbiology,you really want to torture me or what?this much?this hard?

dush.lempang diri sendiri sebab stress.diam.tutup cerita exam.

...


lagi 3 hari nak balik.BALIK.MALAYSIA aku cakap kauuuuuuu..

but takde la meroyan sampai masuk mimpi.sebab yang masuk dalam mimpi ialah,of course,EXAM.tsk.tsk.

okay.sabar.sabar.

...

siang tadi ada kenangan mengimbau,dan sepanjang merentas lorong kenangan[apakah???????],telah tersedar beberapa perkara.

i've changed.a lil bit here and there.not 100% but yes.i do change.people may not noticed,since yang rapat2 semua duduk jauh.kalau message or contact thru facebook,well,i might sound like Azian Nur Suhana yang gila2 macam dulu.but here comes the truth.i'm not that Azian Nur Suhana.you'll get surprised once you meet me.face to face.gila-gila.oh.yang tu still ada,but internally,i do change.and externally,of course.dah,jangan buat2 tak faham.you know what i mean =.="

and looking back this past few years,i can say that 70% of me is a new me.because when you keep growing up,when you keep living,you'll notice that certain things in our life,that we used to like,are not suitable anymore for us.be it a person or a thing.be it anything.

i'm moving on.seriously.i forget who i want to forget,i forgive who i should and could forgive.

well,i can't simply forgive everyone.i know,forgiving someone is our task as Allah's slave,because it's not our HAK to sesuka hati tak maafkan orang.but,i am a human.a normal human.bukan supergirl[eh eh lagu SuJu ni].i'm working on it.still.

and believe me people,once you meet me in the future,or for those yang dah janji siap2 nak jumpa in another 3 days tuu,mesti akan terkejut.

oh this is not a mencari publisiti ke apa,but i speak the truth.

it's up to you to believe it or not.

and for my feelings,heh,human are created with emotions.but human have brain and heart to distinguish between good and bad.yang batil dengan yang hak.yang salah dengan yang betul.i do feel that my feeling towards that someone,is really immature,stupid and erkk..kind of tak masuk akal?

i waited for 7 years,yet at the end of the day,i realize that someone isn't made for me.at least i know for now.but if Allah nak kun fayakun kan dua manusia ini,siapa boleh halang?ah,tidak la sampai berdu'aa siang malam untuk si polan ini.belum masuk tahap tu lagi.awal lagi.

cuma sekarang,aku bebas dari benda2 menyesak jiwa ni[exception for Lee Hong Ki and Brother rambut serabai guitar merah CN Blue :P]

i did brag about certain things,okay..many things.and i complained a lot.but my way of thinking is different.way too different.kalau dulu,each one of things yang jadi,first thing popped up in my head would be;

"kenapa?apesal pulak macam ni?"

and i said it out loud.

but now,when something happened,i will sit and accept it.even kadang2 separuh rela,but i accept it.and that,a major thing yang berubah.dulu susah sangat nak accept apa2 yang jadi.mesti nak tentang dulu.mesti nak jugak telagah.nak jugak bangkang.but now,dah kurang macam tu.

why?

because dulu, i opened only my eyes,not my heart.i search things based on logic,not based on ayat Allah.i tell you,everytime something came up,do not say anything.cepat2 rujuk ayat Allah.you'll find the answer.tak pernah tak jumpa.

and i realize that i have many good friends,yang sama2 jatuh bangun time sekolah.and now,each one of us dah berubah.ke arah baik atau tidak,itu saya kurang pasti,tapi yang baik2 lah hendaknya.inshaAllah.and we have our own path.ambik medic la,engineering la,maths la,cikgu la,chemistry la,pharmacy la..and many more.i am glad to know all of them.each of them is different,in many ways.syukur untuk itu.

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okayyyy.done meluah.sekarang mari sambung baca Microb.please microb,be easy on me tomorrow.i promise you,after exam ni habis,i will never ever abandoned you.i will never ever put you out from my jadual belajar.hihi.

baiklah.sebelum aku melalut lebih panjang,baik aku berhenti.sekian.


notapakkaki: tolong du'aa untuk saya. Ya Allah, permudah kan lah segala urusan dunia dan akhirat Azian Nur Suhana. dan Allah permudahkan urusan kita semua.inshaAllah.Ameen.

May Allah blesses us.

musim exam,kalau dapat makan cakoi mesti best.

Bismillaah...



first day exam.FORENSIC MEDICINE telah ditumpaskan.tumpas ke?just wait and see the marks la baru boleh kata tumpas ke hape.

i did my best tadi.tatau la lecturer rasa best ke tak baca jawapan aku =.="

lupakan forensic.yang berlalu usah dikenang,sayang.muahaha.apakah tetiba jiwang ini?baik.baik.kita ke hal lain.


got another 3 papers.all of them are the killer subjects.jangan masuk fasa stress lagi sekali Azian Hana.aku lempang kau karang.


tapi dalam banyak2 paper,aku rasa Microbiology akan jadi subject yang paling digeruni..sebab..sebab..ah biarkan.kita cuba yang terbaik.okay?

...

oh,past few days ago,ada satu puisi yang aku kerah keluar dari otak.

puisi untuk kakak.

dan aku dah berkira-kira nak baca time si degil number 2 kahwin,tapi kejap lagi kena buat bahan dengan pak2 sedara dengan sepupu papat tak ke nahas namanya??

jadi aku rasa,aku akan selit puisi dekat bilik pengantin dia aje lah.biar surpriseeeeeeeeeeeee!haha.ngok.

yelah,nak bagi hadiah lain,adik mu ini telah pokai.nak membeli novel juga sudah kurang duit.[yang dekat sheffield kalau baca,sila send number credit card anda sekarang.msg kat fb pun okay :P].


okay.sekarang urat kepala dah pandai menonjolkan diri di dahi jendol.orang tak panggil pun di sibuk nak keluar.fine.nak tidur lah macam ni.

terencat

Bismillaah..


revising through my notes,i realize that i am the one yang suka berangan time belajar.

why?

because most of my notes,at every page of them,mesti akan ada some lines of poem.or quotes,or apa2 aje la ayat merapu yang terlintas dalam kepala.that wasn't my actual intention to do so,but it just happened.it just...there.haha.

maybe because i think too much.or maybe because i like to do many things at a same time.very tak effective you know.sila jangan ikut perangai aku.

=.="


exam is less in 24 hours.yeay!eh why so happy?it's EXAM!gila ke kau Azian Hana?

well,i just want it to be done.just do it.wah.Nike!

=.="