emo

mode: emo

okay.fine.fine la kau cakap aku macam tu.finnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeeee


kau memang hfdsjfhduresoitpendjfnjhbfhs.

and kau pengecut.apehal weyh hantar email aje.kalau nak,datang ah jumpa.ingat setakat dengan blackmail kau tu,boleh bagi aku cuak tahap petala ke 8 ke?

i am tired as hell,and suddenly,this girl sent me some freaky emails,claimed that i stole her boyfriend[??].

bayangkan la.aku penat penat balik dari clinical posting,dah la bangun awal siottttttt,breakfast coco crunch ciput aje,lepas tu,dah kena berdiri for almost 3 and a half hours.ingat balik balik check email,kot kot la dapat gambar yang ditunggu selama ni,tapi...

dapat blackmail yang tak menggerunkan,tapi menaikkan darah.

and you,freaky chick yang suka sibuk hal orang,i already got hypertension.there's no need to make me angry lagi la kan?

bodoh kau.

just because you think,i repeat,YOU THINK and YOU WISH that you are beautiful,and YOU THINK that you are sooooooooooooooo chicky mickey,sexy and ape ape je la,doesn't mean that YOU COULD SENT ME THOSE FUCKING STUPID EMAILS.and for your information,I DON"T CARE a bit pun.

pergi la tanya sendiri dekat dia kalau nak tau sangat.

Ya Allah,seriously,i can't stand stupid people!

apa yang masalah kau???!!aku banyak lagi benda nak fikir.aahhh,ni yang maaaalaaaaaaaaassss nak involved hal hal dunia yang merapu ni.buat tambah dosa aku aje.siiooooottttttttt~~

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,emo lagi hari ni.sekian kisah emo saya.

.....

last usrah bincang pasal changes.i did considering to change myself into someone better.at least i should[you really should ayam] stop cursing and talking bad words.

i am trying.aaaaaaaaaaa.and changes don't have to be so sudden kan?biar la perlahan lahan,tapi berkualiti.kalau tiba tiba,tapi sekejap dan ala kadar aje baik tak payah kan?

but there is still another questions in my head and heart.

the changes;

on what purposes it should be?is it Lillahi Taala,or just nak boleh orang lain pandang baik,alim,and all?if it is because the later one,you better stay the way you are right now.useless,meaningless kalau buat macam tu.

but one person said;

"fake it till you make it"

haaa,yang itu macam mana pulak?

then,how to start?perlu ke start dengan pakai jubah,tudung labuh segala tutup semua sekali,atau...start dengan baiki dalaman dulu?start baca and fahamkan ayat ayat Allah maybe.or maybe should start reading Islamic stuffs?

ada orang cakap;

"alaahhhh,pakai tudung labuh2 tak semestinya alim,baik."

yes.memang.i agreed with that.but...the thing is,what you wear did reflect your own self.[erk,tapi kalau pakai jersy ade tulis Carlsberg macam mana?haaa,jawab.jawab].

tapi,kalau nak berubah,tak semestinya kena terus pakai tudung labuh jubah segala.try tutup aurat perlahan lahan la.at least,kalau pakai tudung bawal biasa tu,cuba la tak payah selempang ke apa kan.or maybe kalau selempang pun,try la buat selempang gaya gaya tutup dada sikit.

ouh,banyak sangat kalau nak cakap pasal changes.sampai hari jumaat bulan 12 tahun 2020 pun tak habis.

dan ya,aku pun still teruk lagi.but at least i'm trying.you?

tepuk dada tanya iman.

.....

dah.nak sambung minami shineyo episode 12.



ohsorandom:kalau boleh terbang pun best jugak kan?