positive

Bismillaah..



Mother's Day is just 2 days away.and i'm not even at home to celebrate it with Mak.plus with the upcoming calls from my sisters,telling about how much joy they had during the celebration.plus how they mocking me for not be able to hug my mom.the thought of that,makes me fell bad.how sad and depressing is that?and i don't think i will be able to celebrate her birthday this year.

why you bla bla about this ayam?as if there's no cards and post services.

yeah.you might think that.but for me,being no less than 1 metre radius from my mom,on that day,means...much more than what you thought.yes.we should love our mom every seconds.not only on that day.

but,for my family,mother's day is...important.maybe because we used to celebrate it then.or maybe i brag bout it this time,because i usually do something on that day.and yes.despite of the boarding school's gate and rules,i still managed to do something for her.i mean,something special.not that i threw a party or what,but more to..showing my appreciation.

phone calls.yes.i will do that,definitely.but i prefer to see her in front of my eyes.not only listen to her voice.

*sigh*


baik.aku bersabar lah ni.


...

masuk bab lain.


mari berbicara tentang niat.

"sorry.baru balik dari usrah and yassin."
"eleh ko.so ko join usrah now?"
"haah."
"suka la?"
"of course la.at least ada orang to remind me to be on the right track."
"eleh poyo.ni nak cakap,ko dah jadi baik la ni?"
"tak de la maksud macam tu.."
"habih tu,buat apa nak bangga cakap ko join usrah"


okay.

what would you feel if you caught up in this kind of conversation?

nak hempuk manusia tu?
nak senyum?
ke nak terang lagi banyak?
ke diam aje?


haaa.pilih.pilih.

as for me,aku akan diam and senyum.dan kalau boleh,aku nak tepuk bahu manusia yang bertanya tu.tepuk as in perlahan-lahan la.bukan yang sampai nak terkeluar jantung.haish.


biarlah orang nak kata apa.selagi benda tu baik untuk kita,selagi tu kita cuba.kan?and kalaulah terjadi conversation seperti di atas,jangan rasa;

"eh bongoknya dia ni.ade ke cakap aku nak menunjuk."

be positive.cuba fikir,at least,by letting he/she know about you joining the usrah,mungkin hati dia akan terbukak untuk join jugak?mungkin dia akan rasa dia pun nak cuba rasa macam mana berada dalam lingkungan usrah.and inshaAllah,dia pun boleh jadi lebih baik dari diri dia sekarang.


maka,jangan cepat melenting bila ada sesiapa salah tafsir niat anda.be calm and be positive.then you'll find the hikmah behind all things that happened.

Jom.

Jadi positive.

:)